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I heard the news today, you left from a freind....
The spirit of your influence will always last.
You have come and you have gone,
but you're still here in thought...
I've not seen god in ages, why,
Sometimes the nightmares are in infrared, black, and white...
I have walked through peaks and valleys, through the desert...
Seen the place where we once were...
Seems since that day no time passed at all.
the spirit of your influence, your influence, will always last...
I heard the news today, you left, from a friend,
The spirit of your influence will always last.
--William Brauninger
I dont think i remembered all the lyrics right, but those are the words from a song that a friend of mine wrote.....it's really a beautiful song.
I'm sad. I miss Ed. It's funny, i went ages without seeing him at a time, and now that i cant, i really just.....miss him.
I feel that i've grown a lot in the past couple months. I cant describe this growth spurt, but it's been a healthy one, for me, at least. I know that there are a few hurt people because of this growth spurt...I guess that's the way the cookie crumbles? I dont know.....i never liked cookies. I feel that i'm growing into a much different and mature person, which is good, because i can still be a little kid, and not get ridiculed for it as well. I'm feeling torn between older feelings about life, and the new ideas presented to me. I feel that i'm learning a lot about myself, and either my friends are going to love me through this growth, or leave me durring it....which is good, either way, i suppose...whatever they feel they need me to do to make them happy...either stop talking to them, or love them when they dont love me. For a while, all i had were my friends. The only ones i knew truly loved me were my friends....and this is still very true, though it was veyr hard to love myself like they did. Now i love myself too....and i'm here for myself too, which is good, i think....or am i wrong? I'm having a difficult time accepting these new feelings, i think because i know it's the end of an era. A new chapter in life. I'm growing up.....jeezus, i'm finally growing up.....and i know it's a good thing, though i dont like some of it....like brocolli.....i like the dark green part, but the rest is shitty. Fuck...i dunno what's going on.......i just know that i'm happy. Is that okay?
The spirit of your influence will always last.
You have come and you have gone,
but you're still here in thought...
I've not seen god in ages, why,
Sometimes the nightmares are in infrared, black, and white...
I have walked through peaks and valleys, through the desert...
Seen the place where we once were...
Seems since that day no time passed at all.
the spirit of your influence, your influence, will always last...
I heard the news today, you left, from a friend,
The spirit of your influence will always last.
--William Brauninger
I dont think i remembered all the lyrics right, but those are the words from a song that a friend of mine wrote.....it's really a beautiful song.
I'm sad. I miss Ed. It's funny, i went ages without seeing him at a time, and now that i cant, i really just.....miss him.
I feel that i've grown a lot in the past couple months. I cant describe this growth spurt, but it's been a healthy one, for me, at least. I know that there are a few hurt people because of this growth spurt...I guess that's the way the cookie crumbles? I dont know.....i never liked cookies. I feel that i'm growing into a much different and mature person, which is good, because i can still be a little kid, and not get ridiculed for it as well. I'm feeling torn between older feelings about life, and the new ideas presented to me. I feel that i'm learning a lot about myself, and either my friends are going to love me through this growth, or leave me durring it....which is good, either way, i suppose...whatever they feel they need me to do to make them happy...either stop talking to them, or love them when they dont love me. For a while, all i had were my friends. The only ones i knew truly loved me were my friends....and this is still very true, though it was veyr hard to love myself like they did. Now i love myself too....and i'm here for myself too, which is good, i think....or am i wrong? I'm having a difficult time accepting these new feelings, i think because i know it's the end of an era. A new chapter in life. I'm growing up.....jeezus, i'm finally growing up.....and i know it's a good thing, though i dont like some of it....like brocolli.....i like the dark green part, but the rest is shitty. Fuck...i dunno what's going on.......i just know that i'm happy. Is that okay?