damn you, mind!!
its 2. i cant sleep. ive been in bed for an hour. i took sleep pills... and yet... here i am.
things running through my head:
*aislinn
*tyler
*my body sucks (repeat)
*comparison of myself with [ais, erin, devon, hayley, linds, shana, molly, annie, kelsey, etc.] with respect to body and sense of humor.
*my dog is dying (this one made me cry a little when i pictured him dead)
*my counselor tomorrow
*marketplace
*oversleeping
*im sleepy
*why cant i sleep? (repeat)
*that light keeps blinking
*my neck hurts
*when will i do hw?
*sleeping in a tent with brenton
*featherbeds
*my room next year
*the room isnt dark enough
*recent dreams
*my legs are hairy
*my nose is stuffy/running
*my job
*pillows are too hard/soft
ive gotten up twice, first to take out my contacts, second to pee and write this, hoping staring at a screen would make me sleepier. not working.
i just keep thinking. there are so many thoughts and they wont stop coming. i stop one thought and another picks up. and dammit, i was gonna get to bed early tonight. ...i failed in the first place, but now its an hour later. i have to be IN CLASS in 6.5 hrs.
if i fall asleep right now, i can sleep 5 hrs. will i fall asleep now and thus get 5 hrs of sleep? no. DAMMIT!!
things running through my head:
*aislinn
*tyler
*my body sucks (repeat)
*comparison of myself with [ais, erin, devon, hayley, linds, shana, molly, annie, kelsey, etc.] with respect to body and sense of humor.
*my dog is dying (this one made me cry a little when i pictured him dead)
*my counselor tomorrow
*marketplace
*oversleeping
*im sleepy
*why cant i sleep? (repeat)
*that light keeps blinking
*my neck hurts
*when will i do hw?
*sleeping in a tent with brenton
*featherbeds
*my room next year
*the room isnt dark enough
*recent dreams
*my legs are hairy
*my nose is stuffy/running
*my job
*pillows are too hard/soft
ive gotten up twice, first to take out my contacts, second to pee and write this, hoping staring at a screen would make me sleepier. not working.
i just keep thinking. there are so many thoughts and they wont stop coming. i stop one thought and another picks up. and dammit, i was gonna get to bed early tonight. ...i failed in the first place, but now its an hour later. i have to be IN CLASS in 6.5 hrs.
if i fall asleep right now, i can sleep 5 hrs. will i fall asleep now and thus get 5 hrs of sleep? no. DAMMIT!!