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so i found out last night that my dog is dying. i havent told anyone... i dont want it to be true. i guess he's started having seizures pretty frequently...at least once a day. he went to the vet and they said his bloodwork came back normal and they think its either this adrenal disease or a brain tumor. neither of which they recommended treatment for because he is 14. tomorrow he goes back to the vet and they are gonna give him something to help control them somehow. my mom is concerned about his quality of life and if they cant get it under control they might put him to sleep. if it's a brain tumor he might die soon anyway. ive had farley for as long as i can remember, really. i remember getting him in 1st grade... i have pictures in my 1st grade journal (from school) that i drew of him. he's always been MY dog. he adores me. i understand him. we communicate. i love him sooo much.
he had one while i was home tonight picking up some groceries and my laundry i left there this morning. his eyes dart from side to side and he pants REALLY heavily. his legs shake and he cant move. he pees and poops all over himself. after 5 or 10 minutes he can sit up and a little while later he can walk again. we have to lock him in the bathroom after cuz he just wets all over. tonight he threw up all over too. its so sad...
if he's going to die soon i want to spend time with him...
i know it sounds so stupid to be so upset, but when barkley died i wasnt that emotionally attached...and it was still really sad. farley is MINE and i really realy love him. i feel awful being upset about my dog dying when ben's dad so recently passed, but thus far in my experience this is one of the hardest things ive had to think about. compared to people like ben who have had other tragedies, my problems may seem like nothing. but to me its everything. im sorry im so selfish, but im really sad... :(
he had one while i was home tonight picking up some groceries and my laundry i left there this morning. his eyes dart from side to side and he pants REALLY heavily. his legs shake and he cant move. he pees and poops all over himself. after 5 or 10 minutes he can sit up and a little while later he can walk again. we have to lock him in the bathroom after cuz he just wets all over. tonight he threw up all over too. its so sad...
if he's going to die soon i want to spend time with him...
i know it sounds so stupid to be so upset, but when barkley died i wasnt that emotionally attached...and it was still really sad. farley is MINE and i really realy love him. i feel awful being upset about my dog dying when ben's dad so recently passed, but thus far in my experience this is one of the hardest things ive had to think about. compared to people like ben who have had other tragedies, my problems may seem like nothing. but to me its everything. im sorry im so selfish, but im really sad... :(