Rambly stupid blah whatever
So I signed up for classes next semester... I'm taking English (American Lit) and Spanish at campus, then I've got Bio (since I dropped it), Sociology, and Political Science all online. I'm not sure how Bio will be online... anyone have any experience with sciencey classes online? I know I'll have to do Saturday labs from 9AM to 4PM, which is forever and ever, but it's only like, once a month. So I dunno. Any and all feedback and advice is welcome.
School this semester is okay... English is silly, Theatre is kind of fun, Computer is easy and ridic, and Speech is stupid and boring. But my grades have been okay and it's nearly over! Oh college.
Today in Theatre we watched this little movie thing about the Tonys and the process of making a show and running it on Broadway and all the trouble and stuff that happens... and it made me tear up, no lie. I want to move to NYC and be part of musical theatre. I want to do stuff. I love theatre and musicals and I so want to see one on Broadway... and I want to be there. In New York. I want to know what it's like.
I don't know, I'm feeling weird lately. Like I want to move, to CA or NY or somewhere, and like I want to be done with college and ready for a career... but I actually like being in school. I don't know. I just need something.
Bridget and Alex are moving out, I guess. They haven't been back for their stuff, but they say they're leaving. Bridget and I got into a big fight on Saturday, because of a lot of things but mostly because she's unfairly cruel to me a lot of the time, and I don't feel like I deserve it. There were some other things not related to her that made me over-react, but still, she just said some things and did some things that really hurt me and she does it all the time, and I just cannot handle it right now. I am at a breaking point anyway, what with this depression and anxiety and all these stupid things that are happening... and I just can't. So I guess they're leaving.
I feel like there's a lot of tension in our household. Cat and Britt almost always seem annoyed at me and James, and often we're annoyed at them. It's mostly because of the kitchen. We never really talk about it, but there have been emails and LJ stuffs and everyone knows that everyone is annoyed. It's uncomfortable to live like this, and it's too stressful being so angry about things all the time... but I don't know how to fix it. James and I have been putting our dishes in the dishwasher and keeping them out of the sink so that Cat and Britt are only washing their own dishes, and I keep pulling rancid food out of the fridge and cleaning that out, and throwing away boxes of cereal with half a bowl's worth left in them that's all stale, and I've organized all of the food cabinets and labeled all of the kitchen, but I don't know. It's just... blah.
James and I have been together for two years on Halloween. :D It's happymaking. I love him so much. He's so perfect and wonderful and sweet and I want to be with him forever and ever. <3
School this semester is okay... English is silly, Theatre is kind of fun, Computer is easy and ridic, and Speech is stupid and boring. But my grades have been okay and it's nearly over! Oh college.
Today in Theatre we watched this little movie thing about the Tonys and the process of making a show and running it on Broadway and all the trouble and stuff that happens... and it made me tear up, no lie. I want to move to NYC and be part of musical theatre. I want to do stuff. I love theatre and musicals and I so want to see one on Broadway... and I want to be there. In New York. I want to know what it's like.
I don't know, I'm feeling weird lately. Like I want to move, to CA or NY or somewhere, and like I want to be done with college and ready for a career... but I actually like being in school. I don't know. I just need something.
Bridget and Alex are moving out, I guess. They haven't been back for their stuff, but they say they're leaving. Bridget and I got into a big fight on Saturday, because of a lot of things but mostly because she's unfairly cruel to me a lot of the time, and I don't feel like I deserve it. There were some other things not related to her that made me over-react, but still, she just said some things and did some things that really hurt me and she does it all the time, and I just cannot handle it right now. I am at a breaking point anyway, what with this depression and anxiety and all these stupid things that are happening... and I just can't. So I guess they're leaving.
I feel like there's a lot of tension in our household. Cat and Britt almost always seem annoyed at me and James, and often we're annoyed at them. It's mostly because of the kitchen. We never really talk about it, but there have been emails and LJ stuffs and everyone knows that everyone is annoyed. It's uncomfortable to live like this, and it's too stressful being so angry about things all the time... but I don't know how to fix it. James and I have been putting our dishes in the dishwasher and keeping them out of the sink so that Cat and Britt are only washing their own dishes, and I keep pulling rancid food out of the fridge and cleaning that out, and throwing away boxes of cereal with half a bowl's worth left in them that's all stale, and I've organized all of the food cabinets and labeled all of the kitchen, but I don't know. It's just... blah.
James and I have been together for two years on Halloween. :D It's happymaking. I love him so much. He's so perfect and wonderful and sweet and I want to be with him forever and ever. <3