Why don't I ever sleep?
I finished Breaking Dawn, and even though it was a complete waste of time, I'm glad I read it because it actually did clear up quite a few things about the series. It was a nice ending, I guess. Whatevs.
I'm not sure why I am awake... I've been sleeping on and off all day, and for the past few days I've been ridiculously tired/fatigued. And I have things I have to do today, so I really don't know why I'm not asleep. I guess I'll stay up for awhile, do what I need to do, then take a nap until bowling tonight. Who knows.
Also not really sure why I'm posting... I just know I've been feeling so weird lately, like I need to tell people things. But I'm afraid. And I don't think I could do it on LJ, but that seems to be the easiest way. I'm not good at talking to people about serious things.
I feel lost. I've felt like this for a long time - the only times I feel sane at all is when I'm with James or asleep. And neither of those are nearly enough.
This whole college thing... I dunno, man. It's so complicated - but I think I've finally got it under control? And I might even be excited? ^^; I'm nervous and scared and apprehensive, but glad to be doing it. I don't know. It's just Tech - I don't even know about after that.
I'm not working at Papa John's anymore, by the way. -_- I got fired for yelling at a customer, and also I guess the week off didn't help. I suck at this so hard. Why is it so difficult for me to find a job that doesn't suck my soul out and kill me, and keep it? Why is that impossible?
Sorry, friendslist. I don't know what's wrong with me. But thanks for listening, those of you who do. <3
I'm not sure why I am awake... I've been sleeping on and off all day, and for the past few days I've been ridiculously tired/fatigued. And I have things I have to do today, so I really don't know why I'm not asleep. I guess I'll stay up for awhile, do what I need to do, then take a nap until bowling tonight. Who knows.
Also not really sure why I'm posting... I just know I've been feeling so weird lately, like I need to tell people things. But I'm afraid. And I don't think I could do it on LJ, but that seems to be the easiest way. I'm not good at talking to people about serious things.
I feel lost. I've felt like this for a long time - the only times I feel sane at all is when I'm with James or asleep. And neither of those are nearly enough.
This whole college thing... I dunno, man. It's so complicated - but I think I've finally got it under control? And I might even be excited? ^^; I'm nervous and scared and apprehensive, but glad to be doing it. I don't know. It's just Tech - I don't even know about after that.
I'm not working at Papa John's anymore, by the way. -_- I got fired for yelling at a customer, and also I guess the week off didn't help. I suck at this so hard. Why is it so difficult for me to find a job that doesn't suck my soul out and kill me, and keep it? Why is that impossible?
Sorry, friendslist. I don't know what's wrong with me. But thanks for listening, those of you who do. <3