Feeling nothing.
It's odd.. For some reason I have spent the morning feeling quite out of it, my common sense wasn't kicking in so I had to be very carefull about what I was saying to people.. normaly I don't have to do this, so it's worrying.
A friend of mine suicided recently.. not someone close, but someone I knew. Drugs, severe depression, and a bad father all contributed.. It's weird, this is the first time I've known someone who went down that road, it's something I have thought about at times, but never have I gone through with it.. but anyway, I don't 'feel' anything at all, not sad, not upset like I think I should be.. I just have this empty bit where my heart should be, like I've just turned off my emototions.. I hope they come back.
Jolan.
A friend of mine suicided recently.. not someone close, but someone I knew. Drugs, severe depression, and a bad father all contributed.. It's weird, this is the first time I've known someone who went down that road, it's something I have thought about at times, but never have I gone through with it.. but anyway, I don't 'feel' anything at all, not sad, not upset like I think I should be.. I just have this empty bit where my heart should be, like I've just turned off my emototions.. I hope they come back.
Jolan.