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Hello folks, I know I said i was done with this shit, but felt like writing something, and had no better place, and NO, this doesn't mean i am starting back up my journal.. . . . ..
Ok, I have gotten pissed at somebody that was to me, a very close friend. Now, I do have the right to have been upset from what happened, but not sure if me just discarding the friendship is right or not. But none the less, that's what i have pretty much done. There are only a few that I truely cherrish in this life and feel as close to them almost as if they were family. Used to, anyone that close, could get away with murder with me. I didn't want to lose what i had, so I over looked EVERYTHING. I did it for four years with my ex best friend. Did any and everything in this world i could do for her. And was stabbed in the back more times than i could count. But I kept over looking EVERYTHING she did, till I was in jail. She was like a sister to me, and i was like a brother to her. She made me a promise that she would come to visit me atleast once a month thinking I was goin to be about 4 hours away. Weel, i ended up doin my time in our local county jail, so for a year, i was no more than 20 minutes away. She never once came to see me, even I managed to get out of jail and stop by to visit her one day. I started thinking about that, and the fact that the only letters she wrote me, was when she had a problem and needed somebody to talk to. She always came to me with her problems, cause i would always solve them for her. Well, when i got out, i gave her a change to make things better. Didn't even let her know I was upset. well, 2 weeks went by before she even called me, when she was only stayin about 10 minutes down the road. I was with her while she gave birth 20 mintutes before my final court date where I KNEW i was goin to jail. It had already been put in writting. That's how much she ment to me. Well, there is a girl now that means about that much to me, that really made sit back and think about some stuff. Sometimes the friendship felt so good, and sometimes just felt like a good friend. regardless, I would have dropped everything and went to her if she needed me for ANYTHING. A few days ago, something happened that made me question how strong our friendship bond was on her side...... after about 5 minutes, i came to the conclussion that I was no more than just an aquaintance. So, instead of goin on for years to finally have enough and say fuck it, I am saying it now. That's one less friend i have to worry about making happy, or smile. From now on, no more over looking shit, one lil thing, i'll give a friend another chance. One major thing, and fuck it, i'm not goin to have it, i'd rather have no friends then have people make me feel like shit. If anyone truely cares, it's obvious. they take the time out of thier lives to make sure you are in thier lives. It's like yahoo, i have probably about 75+ on it right now that I talk to alteast once a week, but only about 5 messege me first unless somebodies b/f broke up with them, or if they need to know something. So, if you aren't one of the people that start a conversation with me about half the time, don't expect me to messege you from now on, you messege me once, that's how i will do you. bet those friendships wont last very long. Most of those wont bother me, this one, hurts though. She was one of those very few I thought would make a very long friendship with and would even take vacations to see every once in awhile. But you know what they say, nothign last forever.
Ok, I have gotten pissed at somebody that was to me, a very close friend. Now, I do have the right to have been upset from what happened, but not sure if me just discarding the friendship is right or not. But none the less, that's what i have pretty much done. There are only a few that I truely cherrish in this life and feel as close to them almost as if they were family. Used to, anyone that close, could get away with murder with me. I didn't want to lose what i had, so I over looked EVERYTHING. I did it for four years with my ex best friend. Did any and everything in this world i could do for her. And was stabbed in the back more times than i could count. But I kept over looking EVERYTHING she did, till I was in jail. She was like a sister to me, and i was like a brother to her. She made me a promise that she would come to visit me atleast once a month thinking I was goin to be about 4 hours away. Weel, i ended up doin my time in our local county jail, so for a year, i was no more than 20 minutes away. She never once came to see me, even I managed to get out of jail and stop by to visit her one day. I started thinking about that, and the fact that the only letters she wrote me, was when she had a problem and needed somebody to talk to. She always came to me with her problems, cause i would always solve them for her. Well, when i got out, i gave her a change to make things better. Didn't even let her know I was upset. well, 2 weeks went by before she even called me, when she was only stayin about 10 minutes down the road. I was with her while she gave birth 20 mintutes before my final court date where I KNEW i was goin to jail. It had already been put in writting. That's how much she ment to me. Well, there is a girl now that means about that much to me, that really made sit back and think about some stuff. Sometimes the friendship felt so good, and sometimes just felt like a good friend. regardless, I would have dropped everything and went to her if she needed me for ANYTHING. A few days ago, something happened that made me question how strong our friendship bond was on her side...... after about 5 minutes, i came to the conclussion that I was no more than just an aquaintance. So, instead of goin on for years to finally have enough and say fuck it, I am saying it now. That's one less friend i have to worry about making happy, or smile. From now on, no more over looking shit, one lil thing, i'll give a friend another chance. One major thing, and fuck it, i'm not goin to have it, i'd rather have no friends then have people make me feel like shit. If anyone truely cares, it's obvious. they take the time out of thier lives to make sure you are in thier lives. It's like yahoo, i have probably about 75+ on it right now that I talk to alteast once a week, but only about 5 messege me first unless somebodies b/f broke up with them, or if they need to know something. So, if you aren't one of the people that start a conversation with me about half the time, don't expect me to messege you from now on, you messege me once, that's how i will do you. bet those friendships wont last very long. Most of those wont bother me, this one, hurts though. She was one of those very few I thought would make a very long friendship with and would even take vacations to see every once in awhile. But you know what they say, nothign last forever.