frustrated
hello peoples i know i dont post alot ,but i need to get this out. I am so frustrated at the current state of things. any of you who know me should know that i hate people helping me at all. I can barely climb a flight of stairs without being out of breath. I am still in incredible amounts of pain.I cry uncontrolably about 4 or 5 times a day thats right a day. so im kinda miserable less than i was about a month ago but still totally in a deep dark hole i know there is nothing anyone can do i just need to vent and i fell this is the only place i can do it without people freaking the fuck out ohhhh i almost forgot on top of everything else.... wait for it. I may never be able to dance again. i mean i will just not like i used to i will prolly be able to pull of the white boy dance but thats it. so you can understand why im more than a lil upset well thats about it my life is filled with doctors apointments and me wondering if i will ever be the old devin again and there is this little voice in the back of my head that keeps getting louder and louder that says no he is dead and gone