I'm sad
I woke up about 20 minutes ago, even though Erin and I were supposed to leave at 10 to go job hunting and I went over to feed my fish, Felt, and he's dead. I'm really upset about it, actually I've been crying over the fish for about 20 minutes. I know it's silly but he was my friend. Okay, I know it sounds really silly but I talked to that damn fish when I had no one else to talk to. It always made me smile to see him swimming around his tank. He's dead now and it's my fault. I left my window open last night and it got too cold, or else I didn't put enough drops into the water when I switched him to his big tank last night, or he didn't get enough food last night. It's sad I know I mean he's just a fish but I can't quite get myself to flush him. i have to do it i know. it's just a damn fish why am i so upset? i've got some good memories of that fish. once lori literally scared the shit out of him when we were driving. john always liked to call him sushi. my mother was fascinated by him the day i got him she just sat there and watched him swim. i bought him when i was with my best friend... she got a fish that day too, we named them felt and velcro. i don't know that fishy just always seemed to make me smile and now i have to go get rid of him. as pathetic as it is i think i'm going to go cry some more first.