rejected... again
So, I had thought I had put the whole rejection thing behind me, with formal recruitment and what not. Then there was tonight. Delta Zeta definitely had a board game night thing tonight, and I really really wanted to go, but I had a french speaker I had to go to. So I got back from work at like 5:20 or so, and finished working on my Orientation Leader application which took me to like 7, when I went down to see my sister and get something to eat for dinner. Then I went to the speaker from 7:30 till 9. From 7-9 was DZ's game thing. Well Rachel went, and came to the speaker a little late. I didn't even know she was going otherwise I would have gone with her. But anyway, so you know we get back from the speaker and what not and I'm in the middle room watching CSI & Without A Trace, then I give the TV to those guys to watch CSI since they were at dinner while I was watching it and they taped it. Well I'm sitting in here and Rach comes in to talk to me while I'm just playing games on my computer. Apparently while I was watching TV or whatnot, some of the DZ girls had come up and Rach got a COB (continuous open bid) to Delta Zeta. I'm trying to act really happy for her like I don't care and it's not a big deal to me or what not ... but it really really hurts. I mean I really wanted to go but I just couldn't ... and then Rach gets a bid. I'm happy for her and all but it's just really bittersweet. I've had my heart set on DZ since the very beginning of the year, and I'm the only one of my friends left who didn't get what they wanted. I mean I'm trying to act like I'm not upset ... but I wanted it so bad. I guess I should live to learn with rejection.