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Some days I miss Nathan more than others. Today's one of those days. I woke up feeling like I didn't want to get out of bed, and all I want to do is curl up to his back and smell his scent. Sometimes three months doesn't seem like so long, but other times it feels like forever., and I wonder if this trip is going to be as good for me as everyone seems to think it will be.
I have a lot of doubts. This trip is supposed to be about personal growth, but I wonder if I'm actually learning anything. I feel like when I meet new people I'm either too honest about myself, or I'm just being "On" for people again like I am a lot back home. Entertainment. I don't feel like I have to perform for Nathan, and he knows all about me already, so I can't really be too honest with him.
On days like these I just want to go home.