first steps
so here are my first real steps into adult hood. Yaaaay. Stepping away from the control of my parents and really truly getting out on my own. I don't really have control over my life, just drifting around doing what crops up, but I suppose that's all changing too. I've never ever been totally responsible for myself, and the more and more I think about it, the more horrifying the concept is. I've spent so long listening to my parents, telling me they'll be the only ones who will ever care about me and ever love me and I can't ever trust friends because no one will ever be there for me like my parents will be. But I always knew that was junk. Cause I'll always try my hardest to be there for somebody -else- and if I'm not thier family, then how could what they tell me make sense? but some of the other things they said stuck...and now I'm weeding through lies and trying to 'fix' myself. I know there are other people I can count on...I'm not totally alone...at least, I'd like to think so.
Dad's going to throw a fit when I tell him I'm not moving home. I know they. They'll threaten me...yell at me, demand I do as they say and tell me I'm making a horrible mistake...but I don't think I'm going to listen. I really truly do hate living with them. So when it happens...when I tell them...everything changes...so in reality, I'm pretty scared.
But on the other hand, I've been doing research. I went out to Chanhassen all on my own, got job applications (With the help of Alex, of course I mean I choose to go out there) I got information I looked up bus routes, I'm in the process of getting boxes to start packing up my stuff. I plan to move out around the 12, or at least get the majority and bulk of my things out of my apartment and into the room at Nelson's place...so if anyone could help me out with that, I'd be much obliged. That said I've saved up around 200 dollars already out of pocket change and random cash. I guess it's really time to go out and show the world what I can do on my own two feet...maybe I really -can- get this to work...
Dad's going to throw a fit when I tell him I'm not moving home. I know they. They'll threaten me...yell at me, demand I do as they say and tell me I'm making a horrible mistake...but I don't think I'm going to listen. I really truly do hate living with them. So when it happens...when I tell them...everything changes...so in reality, I'm pretty scared.
But on the other hand, I've been doing research. I went out to Chanhassen all on my own, got job applications (With the help of Alex, of course I mean I choose to go out there) I got information I looked up bus routes, I'm in the process of getting boxes to start packing up my stuff. I plan to move out around the 12, or at least get the majority and bulk of my things out of my apartment and into the room at Nelson's place...so if anyone could help me out with that, I'd be much obliged. That said I've saved up around 200 dollars already out of pocket change and random cash. I guess it's really time to go out and show the world what I can do on my own two feet...maybe I really -can- get this to work...