ricky
recently ive been getting to sleep because i havent eaten enough so im exhuasted or becuase my painkillers knock me out
now i cant fall asleep because i miss him and he actually is really enjoying being away from me
i hate the fact i have no control over how shti i feel and i jsut feel like a complete loser whose given away being head strong to this dream of love shes had for ages, and when it comes along suddendly ricky decides he wants to be mates
i hate the fact this comes out in my skin and it itches all night
i hate the fact charlotte and heather are upstairs and i should be able to tell them this
i dont understand how he can change so soon from wanting to hug me and stuff to just not wanting me around at all
im finding this so hard to cope with and i know we didnt go out a long time but i built up a lot of feelings and i know rhian you say i jump in too fast but thats me and he knew exactly what was happening yet continued and he says he was being honest but look what its done its just left me far too messy to cope
i need to see him to find out how i feel
im just scared ill burst into tears and end up begging for him back with no self respect or end up hating him when actually all i want it for things to go back to the way they were
i didnt see a problem anywhere except for mass drug intake that was silly
any help?
now i cant fall asleep because i miss him and he actually is really enjoying being away from me
i hate the fact i have no control over how shti i feel and i jsut feel like a complete loser whose given away being head strong to this dream of love shes had for ages, and when it comes along suddendly ricky decides he wants to be mates
i hate the fact this comes out in my skin and it itches all night
i hate the fact charlotte and heather are upstairs and i should be able to tell them this
i dont understand how he can change so soon from wanting to hug me and stuff to just not wanting me around at all
im finding this so hard to cope with and i know we didnt go out a long time but i built up a lot of feelings and i know rhian you say i jump in too fast but thats me and he knew exactly what was happening yet continued and he says he was being honest but look what its done its just left me far too messy to cope
i need to see him to find out how i feel
im just scared ill burst into tears and end up begging for him back with no self respect or end up hating him when actually all i want it for things to go back to the way they were
i didnt see a problem anywhere except for mass drug intake that was silly
any help?