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so today started off just like any other day. i did get about 10 hours of sleep so that was good. work was alright. i came home to find my roommate there and that was nice. we got to catch up on "events" that have been going on in our lives. i hardly ever see the girl. we always miss each other at home since our schedules are wacky. anyway, i went with her to the laundromat and discovered how to make new friends (he was the cuttest little boy). all you really need is a big bag of almond m&m's. too bad that doesn't work with adults. my roommie and i had a wonderful and intellectual conversation. we talked about religion, relationships, finding true happiness (i'm still working on that one), our purpose in life (i really think about that one a lot). i know i'm not just here to go to school, get a job, get married, and have kids. well i hope those aren't the only reasons why i'm here. i dunno i think about my future a lot and i always draw a blank. i guess i just need to live for today and not worry about tomorrow. what happens will happen. but lately i feel like my time is running out and i need to act fast. i dunno. i'm just crazy anymore. i never really get excited about anything. it's really weird. i cannot think of the last time i got really overly excited about anything. i might say that i'm excited about something, but i'm really not. my therapist (when i was going to one) said she thinks i used to get let down when i would build things up to be greater than what they actually turned out to be. i think she's right. so now i'm just numb to most things that go on around me. hummmm.....i will figure things out hopefully. anyway, i went to the gym with celeste and that was great. running is wonderful. i love it. i felt so much better afterwards. then i went to my parent's house to pick up some things. i watch the snl greatest skits of will ferrell, with my little bro. that's some funny stuff. well, i guess that's all i have to say for now. until next time......