Last Night
I came to a conclusion, that I had essentially already made a few weeks ago but was unable to articulate untill last night. My thoughts are consumed with either pondering the future or reflecting on the past, because of this it has been incredibly difficult to trully be in the moment. As a result I have felt removed from situations I am in. I am there but I feel like I am looking in, not experiencing it. It is an odd feeling, but it makes sense. I thought I was alone untill last night. I felt that I was supposed to be incredibly excited about college and going away. I am excited but that excitement is hard to feel when you are scared and upset to end a chapter and start a new one. I am not afraid to say that, I am trully scared. You think you are ready when you are going through the process of applying, and then once everything becomes real you think, well, maybe a few more monthes wouldn't hurt. Its all about timing, and its a process that we have to go through in order to say a proper goodbye. I don't think I will be ready untill I get there, and for now I just have to take a deep breathe and be ok with that.
As for all my friends, soon to be college students, remember we are all going through the same thing just in different ways. So the next time you see someone crying, or yelling, or laughing, or in great need of a talk, just go with it and let them know they aren't alone.
Standing up on bernal hill, with my past behind me, and my future ahead of me, I could not have been more happy with has been a part of my life the past four years... thank you.
As for all my friends, soon to be college students, remember we are all going through the same thing just in different ways. So the next time you see someone crying, or yelling, or laughing, or in great need of a talk, just go with it and let them know they aren't alone.
Standing up on bernal hill, with my past behind me, and my future ahead of me, I could not have been more happy with has been a part of my life the past four years... thank you.