How I deal with this...
I want to thank you for being a part of my the forget-me-nots and marigolds and all the things that don't get old. Is it legal to do this? I surely don't know. It's the only way I have learned to express myself around other peoples' descriptions of life. I'm afraid I'm alone and entirely useless In this department. Let's get fucked up and die. For the last time I'm feeling we'll try not to smile as we cover our heads and drink heavily into the nights. That’s no shocking and surprise. I believe that I can, overcome this and beat everything in the end but I choose to abuse for the time being, maybe I'll win, but for now I've decided to die. Sister soldier you’ve been such a positive influence on my mental frame. If I could ever repay you, I would, but I'm hard up for cash and my memory lacks initiative. God damn the liquor stores' closed, were so close to scoring it hurts, it destroys til it kills. I am tired and hungry and totally useless in this department.