row row row your boat gently out of Grand Rapids...
So this semester has so far made me so indifferent about my feelings. I am very excited to think about the possibility of moving onto a new phase of my life in Cincinnati. Last week I was sure I didn't want to be here. After a rather disastrous incident and a week full of loneliness I was ready to pack up then and leave. This week has been better and I'm not realizing how much I am going to miss coming back to a familiar smiling face in the fall. There are a lot of good people at Grand Valley who, unlike some, have proved to truly be a friend to me. Unfortunately I have not only been forced to reevaluate my school situation I have also realized through all of this who my true friends are. It's so funny how we are in college and people still can't just let others be themselves without someone saying something bad about them. I am highly disappointed in some of the rowers as well because from some of them...NOT ALL..I have completely received the cold shoulder. They are just willing to settle for what others have to say about my situation and judge me rather than putting the three years or so that I have known them behind it all and coming to me themselves. I guess that is just life. I have come accrossed plenty of people who I didn't have things in common with but I still got along with them in some nature. Last week I think I experienced a sense of rejection for the first time. The two things, rowing and Dane, that I have had for over three years are no longer in my life and the people who I thought I was the closest with at Grand Valley never even bothered to call to see how I was doing. I realize that it probably works both ways but the fact that they were never even slightly concerned enough to ask really hurt me. Maybe I had it coming? I really don't understand. On a more positive note, it is a wonderful feeling when you do realize who is truly a part of your life.
As far as friends and relationships go, I am a true culprit of not being a good friend. I have friends all over the US that I constantly loose touch with for months or even years. The best use of life is love right and relationships are what life is all about. I have realized ,especially in the past year, that you can't go through life alone. The best was of spelling love is T I M E. Relationships of all types take time and effort. I have truly tried on the past years to embrace those in my life and spend more time with them. Even if it means calling someone for five minutes or picking up the phone when you know you could ignore a call because you don't feel like answering. To improve myself as a person I am going to continue to do that and try and do it even more when I am at the busiest times of my life. Talking to a friend you haven't spoke to in a month is a lot more rewarding than watching TV for 20 minutes.
As far as whats going on now. Well I'm doing better than last week. I have so much stress lifted off of me from not being on the rowing team and I feel like I'm really embracing what is taught during class and I am keeping up on my homework, study guides and all of the reading. For the first time I have actually been able to read all of the chapters before they are taught in class. This semester is very demanding with four science classes but things are going well so far. I guess I will really find out next week when I have my first test in Physiology.
Running is going ok. Before break I wasn't able to put in the miles that I wanted to so I am not in the shape that I wanted to be in at this time. I am continually putting more miles in every week though so that's good. There's something wrong with my foot and I'm worried about that because it's been bothering me for about three weeks right now. I am just going to keep running though until it's a more persistant pain. If it gets worse, I guess I will have to break down and go to the doctor...blah!!! Apparently and flatteringly (i don't think that's a word :-) I am one of the fastest girls at my base so I am going to be running on a team in the official Air Force marathon. That's about the extent of the details that I have right now but I am anxious to find out exactly what the ordeal entails.
Well I'm going to relax for a change and head off to bed. I hope everyone's semester is starting off well!! I guess if you read this and you wonder why I have done the things that I've done, just remember, I'm still the same person that cares about others.
As far as friends and relationships go, I am a true culprit of not being a good friend. I have friends all over the US that I constantly loose touch with for months or even years. The best use of life is love right and relationships are what life is all about. I have realized ,especially in the past year, that you can't go through life alone. The best was of spelling love is T I M E. Relationships of all types take time and effort. I have truly tried on the past years to embrace those in my life and spend more time with them. Even if it means calling someone for five minutes or picking up the phone when you know you could ignore a call because you don't feel like answering. To improve myself as a person I am going to continue to do that and try and do it even more when I am at the busiest times of my life. Talking to a friend you haven't spoke to in a month is a lot more rewarding than watching TV for 20 minutes.
As far as whats going on now. Well I'm doing better than last week. I have so much stress lifted off of me from not being on the rowing team and I feel like I'm really embracing what is taught during class and I am keeping up on my homework, study guides and all of the reading. For the first time I have actually been able to read all of the chapters before they are taught in class. This semester is very demanding with four science classes but things are going well so far. I guess I will really find out next week when I have my first test in Physiology.
Running is going ok. Before break I wasn't able to put in the miles that I wanted to so I am not in the shape that I wanted to be in at this time. I am continually putting more miles in every week though so that's good. There's something wrong with my foot and I'm worried about that because it's been bothering me for about three weeks right now. I am just going to keep running though until it's a more persistant pain. If it gets worse, I guess I will have to break down and go to the doctor...blah!!! Apparently and flatteringly (i don't think that's a word :-) I am one of the fastest girls at my base so I am going to be running on a team in the official Air Force marathon. That's about the extent of the details that I have right now but I am anxious to find out exactly what the ordeal entails.
Well I'm going to relax for a change and head off to bed. I hope everyone's semester is starting off well!! I guess if you read this and you wonder why I have done the things that I've done, just remember, I'm still the same person that cares about others.