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Lately a lot of random moments of happiness. I always like being alone, because i can actually think and just process everything. But when im alone i get the horrible gut feeling , and it has its ups and downs. But i dont want to focus on that, so im just going to highlight the random moments of happiness
Thursday-tagging with Mary, the best natural high you can ever get, we were just writing all over randomly you are beautiful , huge and there were people just watching us and they were smiling, and if people saw us writing theyd come over and look at it, but theyd pause for a few seconds. We tagged the whole diet section of the supermartkets and everywhere. I dont expect this to change anyones life, and in that moment and say" Hey that post its really on to something , I am beautiful" id really like that but i think its just one step in a change of state. Because i really believe everyones beautiful ,and ive been realizing lately that theres no such thing as physical and emotional beauty, everyones just beautiful period.
Friday- I hungout with Brian, we both thought it was going to be the most awkward moments of our lives. It was kinda but not really . We did talk a lot , and i love talking to him so it just elimanted the awkwardness. I still wasnt my total self but i was pretty close, and i did the privileage system which is really just based on " That putting up walls isnt to keep people out, its just to see if they care enough to knock them down" which is basically everything i do is based , on but it was fun , and were hangingout this week again and doing a puzzle or something idk.
Satuday- I hungout with dutri, it was just fun as ususal. We danced , and talked. I honestly think theyll be my friends for a very long time , just nothing compares when we hangout. We talked about how much we hate racial slurs,and how no matter what you mean by it its just offensive. We got matching sweatbands to surprise rach. I just love them , like each of us have our problems but we all just fit together and we "are perfect in our imperfections" and whenever im not sure how we fit well do something just so zainy , and then i know.
Sunday- I just painted, sketched, and post secreted. I also listened to Billie Holiday . I love her . I sang along. I did my homework
i know its really long but thanks for whoever reads this
Thursday-tagging with Mary, the best natural high you can ever get, we were just writing all over randomly you are beautiful , huge and there were people just watching us and they were smiling, and if people saw us writing theyd come over and look at it, but theyd pause for a few seconds. We tagged the whole diet section of the supermartkets and everywhere. I dont expect this to change anyones life, and in that moment and say" Hey that post its really on to something , I am beautiful" id really like that but i think its just one step in a change of state. Because i really believe everyones beautiful ,and ive been realizing lately that theres no such thing as physical and emotional beauty, everyones just beautiful period.
Friday- I hungout with Brian, we both thought it was going to be the most awkward moments of our lives. It was kinda but not really . We did talk a lot , and i love talking to him so it just elimanted the awkwardness. I still wasnt my total self but i was pretty close, and i did the privileage system which is really just based on " That putting up walls isnt to keep people out, its just to see if they care enough to knock them down" which is basically everything i do is based , on but it was fun , and were hangingout this week again and doing a puzzle or something idk.
Satuday- I hungout with dutri, it was just fun as ususal. We danced , and talked. I honestly think theyll be my friends for a very long time , just nothing compares when we hangout. We talked about how much we hate racial slurs,and how no matter what you mean by it its just offensive. We got matching sweatbands to surprise rach. I just love them , like each of us have our problems but we all just fit together and we "are perfect in our imperfections" and whenever im not sure how we fit well do something just so zainy , and then i know.
Sunday- I just painted, sketched, and post secreted. I also listened to Billie Holiday . I love her . I sang along. I did my homework
i know its really long but thanks for whoever reads this