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i have realized that being friends is just awesome in its self. I cant say I dont miss you because I do in a higher level than Love, friendship. I cant say I dont love you because i really do but Im getting over it because of the fact if i keep being obsessed over it , it will ruin my life... and tare our friendship apart and I know that now. I see now that giving you your own life will make us stronger... I see you smile now and you sound happy in your voice and for once ive done you good and this fact makes me happy because you see I always just wanted to make you happy and now that you are i can be too.
I now know that me being sad all the time was one of the reasons we fell apart, and that my addiction with cutting and killing myself brought you down with me. Im so sorry for that. I know that i took you for granted and I never wanted to do that, i realize that i pushed away a great guy, if not from being my boyfriend but also from being my friend. I know i made you sad when I was like this and i made you feel like shit inside I still cry about that, knowing now i could have made our friendship better by just pushing my problems away and know that i really was lucky and had a great life... thats what im thinking you always wanted to show me... i knew you cared about me...and all i did was push everything in your face. Im sorry for everything i did, i know that i ruined us... but i promise to try hard to make our friendship last ecause you were always the best to talk too. I miss that being able to talk to you.
What i really get sad about anymore is not the fact that you come around sometimes its the fact that we never hang out anymore, not even bowling or anything. Im not saying i want to hang out just you and me cuz i know you would feel uncomfortable with that not saying i would mind but maybe not for a bit, just get some friends together go to a movie or go bowling or go see a play or a basketball game or something. but i know its hard for me to go anywhere cuz i dont have a car... but my birthday is in 2 weeks so after that i want to hang out with u a couple times before i leave even if i have to drive.
Im gonna live now... have fun and laugh... knowing what i lost by not doing these things. aive learned my lesson and now im living the honest life i wanted well not the same one but best i can lol... Im doing things again because i need to get out and know what it would have been to live and i hope your happy for me too.
just pick up the phone once in awhile... or pick up the ink pin and paper... or look for me in the halls....Im always here for you no matter what because I still see you as my very best friend and I love you as that and I care for you as that. Your pretty much family to me... as weird as it sounds... and i miss your family too... i always felt like i was a part of your family too... and now its changed but i hope someday you'll look me up... and that you wont ever forget me....
I know I'll never forget you....
thanks for always being there
believeing in me and everything i did
helping me with everything
knowing in the end I'd be ok
thank u always for the love you gave me
and letting me know someone cared...
thank you
I now know that me being sad all the time was one of the reasons we fell apart, and that my addiction with cutting and killing myself brought you down with me. Im so sorry for that. I know that i took you for granted and I never wanted to do that, i realize that i pushed away a great guy, if not from being my boyfriend but also from being my friend. I know i made you sad when I was like this and i made you feel like shit inside I still cry about that, knowing now i could have made our friendship better by just pushing my problems away and know that i really was lucky and had a great life... thats what im thinking you always wanted to show me... i knew you cared about me...and all i did was push everything in your face. Im sorry for everything i did, i know that i ruined us... but i promise to try hard to make our friendship last ecause you were always the best to talk too. I miss that being able to talk to you.
What i really get sad about anymore is not the fact that you come around sometimes its the fact that we never hang out anymore, not even bowling or anything. Im not saying i want to hang out just you and me cuz i know you would feel uncomfortable with that not saying i would mind but maybe not for a bit, just get some friends together go to a movie or go bowling or go see a play or a basketball game or something. but i know its hard for me to go anywhere cuz i dont have a car... but my birthday is in 2 weeks so after that i want to hang out with u a couple times before i leave even if i have to drive.
Im gonna live now... have fun and laugh... knowing what i lost by not doing these things. aive learned my lesson and now im living the honest life i wanted well not the same one but best i can lol... Im doing things again because i need to get out and know what it would have been to live and i hope your happy for me too.
just pick up the phone once in awhile... or pick up the ink pin and paper... or look for me in the halls....Im always here for you no matter what because I still see you as my very best friend and I love you as that and I care for you as that. Your pretty much family to me... as weird as it sounds... and i miss your family too... i always felt like i was a part of your family too... and now its changed but i hope someday you'll look me up... and that you wont ever forget me....
I know I'll never forget you....
thanks for always being there
believeing in me and everything i did
helping me with everything
knowing in the end I'd be ok
thank u always for the love you gave me
and letting me know someone cared...
thank you