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yeah so its been A LONG TIME! but i was reading over all my past entries and its something good to look back on so i figured that i would start updating again... way too much has happened....
This summer....
me and princess went to university of wisconsin and omg it was AMAZING! there are no other words to describe it but AMAZING! i made so many friends and i will never forget any of them. I made some of my best friends there and i dont no what i would do without them.
Junior year....
this year is going by pretty quickly... the hurricanes seem like so long ago. Me and my fam went to chicago for hurricane Wilma and we ended up getting stuck there for a long time cuz we couldnt get home. I didnt really mind being away. It was nice not to be home. I got to see Tom and Dan while i was there which really made me happy cuz they were the first people that i had seen from the summer and i really missed them a lot!
Thanksgiving break i went up to Conn. to see casper! it was sooo much fun! i really missed her. then one night she went to her homecoming and i went to jaimes house and we went into the city together to see mel! i love those 2 girls like no other. Jordan, Bryan, Sam, and Adam came and met us in the city, it was like a small wisco reunion. It really made me happy.
School really isnt that hard, its just annoying. Starting to deal with college really sucks. It is all that anyone ever wants to talk about anymore it is getting obnoxious.
Homecoming...
Homecoming week was fun... i love dressing up, it is always entertaining to do. The dance wasnt what i expect
ed it to be, i didnt have too much fun there but w.e.... the hotel was great except for the cops coming lol.
So much has happened this year i dont even no what to mention...
I have made such amazing friends that i could never live without, and I have lost some friends too. But that happens so w.e. It is not worth it to keep friends around that just bring you down and cause unnecessary drama in your life.
Life right now...
life is kind of hard. There is a lot of school work to deal with plus SAT stuff which is always annoying. It is a lot to focus on. I havent been too peppy lately and i just have really needed people there to back me up and to make me smile. It is really hard to find people like that, people that know when there is something wrong and just tries to make it better even when they have no clue what is happening with me. Allie has been there for me a lot lately and i love her for that! she knows exactly what to say and she always seems to know when there is something wrong or when i am not acting the same. I really dont no where i would be without her right now.
Him....
I dont like feeling the way i do about him. It actually kind of sucks. He is so far away and my feelings are so strong but there is nothing i can do about them. Talking to him makes me so happy, even if it is just a 5 second conversation online. It was just his birthday and i sent him a gift, i didnt think he was going to like it but he called and thanked me for it and it made me happy to no that i did something good for once. I dont no how to let these feelings go, cuz thats what everyone tells me to do. I no it is unrealistic to think something will ever happen, and i dont even no what i expect from all of this. All i no is that the feelings are there and i dont think anyone else understands that but him. All i want is to see him once and to see if its still there. But i dont no how it couldnt be. But i also feel like seeing him could only make it worse, i might just fall harder and it will make everything worse. Its not a good situation but w.e... i am going up to Indiana and HOPEFULLY he will come see him. I understand if he cant but that would make me sooo happy i dont think anyone understands....
well i am off....
This summer....
me and princess went to university of wisconsin and omg it was AMAZING! there are no other words to describe it but AMAZING! i made so many friends and i will never forget any of them. I made some of my best friends there and i dont no what i would do without them.
Junior year....
this year is going by pretty quickly... the hurricanes seem like so long ago. Me and my fam went to chicago for hurricane Wilma and we ended up getting stuck there for a long time cuz we couldnt get home. I didnt really mind being away. It was nice not to be home. I got to see Tom and Dan while i was there which really made me happy cuz they were the first people that i had seen from the summer and i really missed them a lot!
Thanksgiving break i went up to Conn. to see casper! it was sooo much fun! i really missed her. then one night she went to her homecoming and i went to jaimes house and we went into the city together to see mel! i love those 2 girls like no other. Jordan, Bryan, Sam, and Adam came and met us in the city, it was like a small wisco reunion. It really made me happy.
School really isnt that hard, its just annoying. Starting to deal with college really sucks. It is all that anyone ever wants to talk about anymore it is getting obnoxious.
Homecoming...
Homecoming week was fun... i love dressing up, it is always entertaining to do. The dance wasnt what i expect
ed it to be, i didnt have too much fun there but w.e.... the hotel was great except for the cops coming lol.
So much has happened this year i dont even no what to mention...
I have made such amazing friends that i could never live without, and I have lost some friends too. But that happens so w.e. It is not worth it to keep friends around that just bring you down and cause unnecessary drama in your life.
Life right now...
life is kind of hard. There is a lot of school work to deal with plus SAT stuff which is always annoying. It is a lot to focus on. I havent been too peppy lately and i just have really needed people there to back me up and to make me smile. It is really hard to find people like that, people that know when there is something wrong and just tries to make it better even when they have no clue what is happening with me. Allie has been there for me a lot lately and i love her for that! she knows exactly what to say and she always seems to know when there is something wrong or when i am not acting the same. I really dont no where i would be without her right now.
Him....
I dont like feeling the way i do about him. It actually kind of sucks. He is so far away and my feelings are so strong but there is nothing i can do about them. Talking to him makes me so happy, even if it is just a 5 second conversation online. It was just his birthday and i sent him a gift, i didnt think he was going to like it but he called and thanked me for it and it made me happy to no that i did something good for once. I dont no how to let these feelings go, cuz thats what everyone tells me to do. I no it is unrealistic to think something will ever happen, and i dont even no what i expect from all of this. All i no is that the feelings are there and i dont think anyone else understands that but him. All i want is to see him once and to see if its still there. But i dont no how it couldnt be. But i also feel like seeing him could only make it worse, i might just fall harder and it will make everything worse. Its not a good situation but w.e... i am going up to Indiana and HOPEFULLY he will come see him. I understand if he cant but that would make me sooo happy i dont think anyone understands....
well i am off....