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yeah so its been long since my last entry haha. i kinda blanked out so i stopped writing but im back now. i really want to change for the better this year. but for some reason i just dont think i can do it. i need someone to be there and help me, but i feel like i dont have that person. I really want that person. I hope i find that person soon.
New years resolutions:
1. Become more organized and not to lose things every 5 seconds
2. Start doing better in school
3. dont loose old friends
4. keep new friends
5. take care of myself
I feel like i am losing everyone but somehow at the same time i feel like i have everyone in the world. i need positive people in my life right now. I dont have too many of those. Sarah helps me stay positive. But other people are just so negative. Its so hard for me to be around negative people. It just makes me become so much more negative about everything that i do and i want to stop being negative. It isnt a fun thing. Its not fun at all. I feel like some people just dont care about me anymore. Its like they have better things to do with their time and its really sad. I just want everything to be perfect but i dont think that it can be which totally sucks. Like will anything in the world ever actually be perfect? i hope so. one day i hope so. Im not sure if im changing or other people are changing. Maybe we are both changing. Im not sure if it is a good thing or not. Im not really sure of anything right now. I want to no where my life is going. I wish i had a goal like something that i wanted to do in the future so i could set my mind so something and have most of my time dedicated to that one thing. But i dont have that. life is so confussing.
I am not sure if i am frustrated right now. I cant really describe what emotion i am feeling right now.
I miss Mike and Aaron soooo much! i hope they come down in feb to stay with me. That would make me way to happy. It would be awesome to see them. They are so unbelievably funny! o gosh i miss them.
I LOVE SARAH! i really dont no what i would do without her. she honestly does no me like no1 else does. she is the only one that actually thinks like me. we are so different but so alike. I love our friendship. Its so amazing and i charish it. i have learned so much from her. She has taught be to be more patient and im glad. she teaches me to be patient with people and i teach her how to be a sick complaining bitch haha! chippy and jana forever! here are the bloppers!!!! haha well i need to go and start getting some stuff ready for the first day back to school tomorrow. should be very interesting! but one good thing... i get to start my day out with the love of my life sarah!!!!!!! cant wait for that!
New years resolutions:
1. Become more organized and not to lose things every 5 seconds
2. Start doing better in school
3. dont loose old friends
4. keep new friends
5. take care of myself
I feel like i am losing everyone but somehow at the same time i feel like i have everyone in the world. i need positive people in my life right now. I dont have too many of those. Sarah helps me stay positive. But other people are just so negative. Its so hard for me to be around negative people. It just makes me become so much more negative about everything that i do and i want to stop being negative. It isnt a fun thing. Its not fun at all. I feel like some people just dont care about me anymore. Its like they have better things to do with their time and its really sad. I just want everything to be perfect but i dont think that it can be which totally sucks. Like will anything in the world ever actually be perfect? i hope so. one day i hope so. Im not sure if im changing or other people are changing. Maybe we are both changing. Im not sure if it is a good thing or not. Im not really sure of anything right now. I want to no where my life is going. I wish i had a goal like something that i wanted to do in the future so i could set my mind so something and have most of my time dedicated to that one thing. But i dont have that. life is so confussing.
I am not sure if i am frustrated right now. I cant really describe what emotion i am feeling right now.
I miss Mike and Aaron soooo much! i hope they come down in feb to stay with me. That would make me way to happy. It would be awesome to see them. They are so unbelievably funny! o gosh i miss them.
I LOVE SARAH! i really dont no what i would do without her. she honestly does no me like no1 else does. she is the only one that actually thinks like me. we are so different but so alike. I love our friendship. Its so amazing and i charish it. i have learned so much from her. She has taught be to be more patient and im glad. she teaches me to be patient with people and i teach her how to be a sick complaining bitch haha! chippy and jana forever! here are the bloppers!!!! haha well i need to go and start getting some stuff ready for the first day back to school tomorrow. should be very interesting! but one good thing... i get to start my day out with the love of my life sarah!!!!!!! cant wait for that!