OK so here goes.
First off for all of you how know me you know that i hate wrighting long texts, and if you dont well trust me i hate wrigting . so saying that this long entry is very pressing and needs to be stated which is why i am stating it.
OK so here goes:
lets travel through time with me ok lets go back to when i was very young. i saw my friends when i as at school. We talked about what we had to say, and things were good.
fast foward a few years >>
Now suddenly i had to talk on the phone withmy friends constantly to find out what was going on i needed more information if i didnt call and something happend and i didnt know about it i was behind the times. i was left in the lurch. In addition to the telephone i often took adavatage of this technology to play battle chess or other fun directly connectd featurs of the computer (yeah i was a computer geek)
fast foward a few years >>
All of a sudden "E-MAIL" (chrasses of lighting can be heard)now i hasd to e-mail my friends to see what was going on and i said "well i dint have access tyo the internet at my house or at my school but ive got an e-mial acount" so i went in line rode the system and started to e-mail people.
fast foward a few years >>
Suddenly i stopped receving e-mails, thigs were geting slower and when i said to my friends "hey you never told me about this or that event" well they said "your never online!" WTF?!?!?! so i had to get an IM screen name and sit online with my 3 friends to start (whom i dont talk to now) and now i look at my buddy list 115 buddys, a small fractiojn of whom are online, (my buddy list gets active arround 1:30am) but still i was ok i jumped feet first into AIM and didnt look back (untill now)
fast foward a few years >>
All of a sudden im talking to my friends and they are saying things like "yeah when i was broken down on the side of the road and that tractor trailer took my left arm off and the doctors sewed it back on my helth inshurance went up" and im sitting here saying "what! Im so lost" then thay say "Oh you didnt read my live journal"
WTF?!:?! I am sick of it I refuse to belive in order to keep up with the lives of my friends i ned to stare at a black box and read what thay have to say to the world, Talk to ME damn it! but as with all things if i want to keep on top of things i need to get a live journal. fine wahtever ill get one but now i have to post, i mean i've had it for liek 3 months and thais is my 3rd post!!! but what im trying to get at is to all of my friends i dont want to read about your life from some hollow black box, IM me thats more personal, call me so i know you care -- (732)373-9510 (random stalkers you can cal me too but be nice to my room mate) or better yet why not visit me. or find a way to actually see me i mean isnt that what having friends is all about actually seeing them once in a while. and one last thing a good way to show you still concider me a friend is an ounce of effort in my direction (MY) not near me and hopoes to hit me on your way to talk to some one else.
ok well that post was absolutely self centerd and i apologize but it was in there for a long time. but resuls and conclusion.... I got a live jouranl, im posting you happy? (the world is gradually trying to make it harder and harder for me to comunicate. it has gone to the hardest form of comunication for me and i am clumsy and akward so thanks. and lastly this was not directed at anyone in particualr if oyu thinkim am attacking oyui im not but why are you feeling guilty then? i just wrote about things that are bothering me.
one again im sorry about the self cented post
OK so here goes:
lets travel through time with me ok lets go back to when i was very young. i saw my friends when i as at school. We talked about what we had to say, and things were good.
fast foward a few years >>
Now suddenly i had to talk on the phone withmy friends constantly to find out what was going on i needed more information if i didnt call and something happend and i didnt know about it i was behind the times. i was left in the lurch. In addition to the telephone i often took adavatage of this technology to play battle chess or other fun directly connectd featurs of the computer (yeah i was a computer geek)
fast foward a few years >>
All of a sudden "E-MAIL" (chrasses of lighting can be heard)now i hasd to e-mail my friends to see what was going on and i said "well i dint have access tyo the internet at my house or at my school but ive got an e-mial acount" so i went in line rode the system and started to e-mail people.
fast foward a few years >>
Suddenly i stopped receving e-mails, thigs were geting slower and when i said to my friends "hey you never told me about this or that event" well they said "your never online!" WTF?!?!?! so i had to get an IM screen name and sit online with my 3 friends to start (whom i dont talk to now) and now i look at my buddy list 115 buddys, a small fractiojn of whom are online, (my buddy list gets active arround 1:30am) but still i was ok i jumped feet first into AIM and didnt look back (untill now)
fast foward a few years >>
All of a sudden im talking to my friends and they are saying things like "yeah when i was broken down on the side of the road and that tractor trailer took my left arm off and the doctors sewed it back on my helth inshurance went up" and im sitting here saying "what! Im so lost" then thay say "Oh you didnt read my live journal"
WTF?!:?! I am sick of it I refuse to belive in order to keep up with the lives of my friends i ned to stare at a black box and read what thay have to say to the world, Talk to ME damn it! but as with all things if i want to keep on top of things i need to get a live journal. fine wahtever ill get one but now i have to post, i mean i've had it for liek 3 months and thais is my 3rd post!!! but what im trying to get at is to all of my friends i dont want to read about your life from some hollow black box, IM me thats more personal, call me so i know you care -- (732)373-9510 (random stalkers you can cal me too but be nice to my room mate) or better yet why not visit me. or find a way to actually see me i mean isnt that what having friends is all about actually seeing them once in a while. and one last thing a good way to show you still concider me a friend is an ounce of effort in my direction (MY) not near me and hopoes to hit me on your way to talk to some one else.
ok well that post was absolutely self centerd and i apologize but it was in there for a long time. but resuls and conclusion.... I got a live jouranl, im posting you happy? (the world is gradually trying to make it harder and harder for me to comunicate. it has gone to the hardest form of comunication for me and i am clumsy and akward so thanks. and lastly this was not directed at anyone in particualr if oyu thinkim am attacking oyui im not but why are you feeling guilty then? i just wrote about things that are bothering me.
one again im sorry about the self cented post