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wow, i just got an odd wave of depression. the fact that im a bit drunk isnt too much of a help. Then my female status got brought up. thats no good either. at least i know i have somthing to do tomorrow is a bit of a help. i miss the fact that i was never alone this summer. I miss my roomates, and i miss ben. Im tired of being my parents go-between. Im looking forward to the school year. I really want to go party with this fun girl, but im not sure if thats going to happen the one weekend i can do it. I really wish i wasnt on con-pro wehen i go back. then id feel a bit better about the whole deal. Im also kinda worried about going back early. Im not sure if thats technically allowed. Lots of worries, not much good. yep, way to go telling strangers all of this shit. At least tonight has been peaceful. there needs to be somthing i can do. I havent run in 2 or 3 days, that might be part of it. the lonliness is killing me. Even if this summer was mainly spent in the company of guys, at least it was spent not alone.
Iam drunk, so if any of this is offensive, thats why, that or you are a douchebag. Either way i dont give much of a shit.
Iam drunk, so if any of this is offensive, thats why, that or you are a douchebag. Either way i dont give much of a shit.