loose ends
i guess one of the things that i still think about in regards to jacque is whether i ever managed to become the monster that bryan ended up being to her. i think it's quite possible. there was a lot of misunderstanding at the end. we never really worked any of it out, because, i think, we stopped really respecting one another. or at least i stopped. i mean i was having strong thoughts about what it all meant. and i contacted a professional about it. not really sure how much that final misunderstanding destroyed us.
but, in trying to explain how jacque and i are what we are now: two people who couldn't be further apart. i have to try to figure out what happened. is this all a result of me avoiding contact and not returning a few calls. literally a few? her last text to me sounded more like a plea to keep in touch than anything else. or did we both just really change? or just one of us. or perhaps there was a good deal of false presentation, as she suggested once. or maybe i am not the person i think i am.
are reasons like these the ones that people use to keep in touch?
these are the thoughts i get when i have to learn what the units are for current and capacitance, because i know no physics all of a sudden.
BONUS: i almost forgot, i found my watch. so last night i decided to ice skate on the front lawn. it worked for about seven feet and then i was on the ground. luckily the seven foot skid mark alerted me to it's potential location. with luck, it was still there at 10pm tonight.
i wish i had better taste in music.
but, in trying to explain how jacque and i are what we are now: two people who couldn't be further apart. i have to try to figure out what happened. is this all a result of me avoiding contact and not returning a few calls. literally a few? her last text to me sounded more like a plea to keep in touch than anything else. or did we both just really change? or just one of us. or perhaps there was a good deal of false presentation, as she suggested once. or maybe i am not the person i think i am.
are reasons like these the ones that people use to keep in touch?
these are the thoughts i get when i have to learn what the units are for current and capacitance, because i know no physics all of a sudden.
BONUS: i almost forgot, i found my watch. so last night i decided to ice skate on the front lawn. it worked for about seven feet and then i was on the ground. luckily the seven foot skid mark alerted me to it's potential location. with luck, it was still there at 10pm tonight.
i wish i had better taste in music.