standard semiconnected ramblings

Feb 09, 2007 03:10

what would it be like to be away from home for a very long time?

i guess this post is the result of me having drank just enough to think it better not to study, just enough to be tired at a somewhat normal time (230), and just enough to realize that the skin of my upper torso is dry enough to dump a bottle of lotion all over it (exaggeration). strange mood though.

my house is a very interesting place. it is the former house of georgetown solidarity. yes, that type of solidarity. it would've continued along those lines this year, were it not for a key person deciding to live with her mom. but this house has tradition. there is a purple fish pinataish thing hanging in our living room that has been there for the past two years or more. there are still posters on the ceilings above the stairs with such political activists as che. a white board has vive la revolution in red marker smeared by water that had run down the board long ago, forming blood like streaks. the house had long doubled as a bike shop, because so many people had worked for a local bike shop. my roommate found a dugout when he moved in the room. (wikipedia) one of the housemates who returned from abroad this semester was attempting hydroponics. this house has not stopped smelling of pot this semester.

"i couldn't do that...
"i'd have to really believe in a cause to give my life for it. i could see myself maybe giving my life to someone else, but never really for a cause. i mean that's all you have" 'how could any risk one's life on the battlefield, even for friends like that. the odds of screwing yourself vs. accomplishing anything...'
"i'd like to believe that life becomes something else"
'it's amazing the denial some people have "i hope to God that there is a God, or something" i feel like i've been making the most of this life either way, independent of all that. it's interesting that in spite of my agnostism, i still find myself crying out for God. but then again, why wouldn't i?'
"yeah, it's interesting: at various times i've found myself believing so strongly and others not at all. but right now... i'm at peace, though i don't think i really have any thoughts on that right now."

it all seems so basic, but it never is. the conversation so scripted, but it never is.

she's the only girl i've never met that has the ability to take me places i've been before.

it's late
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