thoughts
so much contemplation, you think you have it all figured out as a kid what your gonna do who your gonna be the kind of person you'll be. And then you grow up and your an adult, and all those plans those thoughts those dreams those ambitions well some make it, but I did not. Instead, I made the worst choices, I failed out of school, didn't make it to class etc.. drank too much got in trouble for drinking, then I met drugs and they took me to a bad side of life, I did things that aren't good while on them and to have them. So now my credit is shit, my life is shit, I work these meaningless jobs, I'm 26 and I wonder how did I get here and then I think you got yourself here no one else. You know sometimes a redo button would be great. Unfortunately there isn't one. So, I guess the only thing to do is come up with a plan and do it. The bad part is the plan lasts a week then I put myself into another situtation and forget all about the plan until I feel bad about my life the next time.