i can't feel my heartbeat anymore..since you walked out the door...
i did basically nothing nada niente zip today there's a bug on my neck. did you ever have a day when nothing goes right and even though maybe you want to kill yourself, you're just TOO tired to even do it? oh well i have those alot. i think i need to see someone about my moodswings. i'm about to seriously hurt one or both of my parents. everything they do pisses me off...not when they're actually nice to me, which is hardly ever, but when they think that just because i'm still living in their house that i'm part of their property. that ended on march 10 2001 when i became 18. oy.
i've decided to start playing piano, because i've been listening to alot of billy joel, elton john and alicia keys recently. watch me start listening to ricky martin and start wearing all leather pants...such a weak minded person i am. ha.
i have a john lennon postcard on my mirror over my desk. it reminds me that i should be free and live for love peace and happiness and fuck how many people get hurt in the process. nahh not the last one. believe me i've learned so much about love in my life, and how some people give it and take it right back, and how some really mean it, although probably 98% of the ones who have told me that were lying.
but it's all in the past now because i have found love and to tell you the truth all the other times i was "in love" i really wasn't because i've never felt this way for someone. and i love you denisse. (yesterday was our 2 month anniversary)
if you're wondering about the line at the top it's a part of a song i wrote once. i don't think my parents would feel that way about me if i walked out the door, unless i left without washing the dishes first haha.
my parents say they have it hard and i have it easy. well, that's one reason i'm moving is to prove that i don't need to 'ease my ass out into the world' to survive.
my book is coming along very well even though it's taking it's damn sweet time to be written. hehe.
well ruby's online so i'm gonna go talk to her. peace and love to you.
~john~
i've decided to start playing piano, because i've been listening to alot of billy joel, elton john and alicia keys recently. watch me start listening to ricky martin and start wearing all leather pants...such a weak minded person i am. ha.
i have a john lennon postcard on my mirror over my desk. it reminds me that i should be free and live for love peace and happiness and fuck how many people get hurt in the process. nahh not the last one. believe me i've learned so much about love in my life, and how some people give it and take it right back, and how some really mean it, although probably 98% of the ones who have told me that were lying.
but it's all in the past now because i have found love and to tell you the truth all the other times i was "in love" i really wasn't because i've never felt this way for someone. and i love you denisse. (yesterday was our 2 month anniversary)
if you're wondering about the line at the top it's a part of a song i wrote once. i don't think my parents would feel that way about me if i walked out the door, unless i left without washing the dishes first haha.
my parents say they have it hard and i have it easy. well, that's one reason i'm moving is to prove that i don't need to 'ease my ass out into the world' to survive.
my book is coming along very well even though it's taking it's damn sweet time to be written. hehe.
well ruby's online so i'm gonna go talk to her. peace and love to you.
~john~