Like The Mythological Phoenix Rising From The Ashes
So i thought I would try a little something different this time. I'm tired of writing about my day. Let's try a little personal commentary to change things up a bit. I'm not me. Well I am, but only partly. Truth is, I have changed so much over the past four years that I no longer know who I am. I don't remember which of my personality traits are mine, and which ones came from someone else.
I am less a man than I am a shattered mirror.
I reflect bits and pieces of people that catch my eye. Speech patterns, facial expressions, vocal intonations, gestures, slang, writing styles. Chances are, if there is something about me you like, it came from somebody else. Let me stress that this is not necessarily a bad thing. This is just something that I've come to realize through my years of self observation. I don't do it on purpose, I don't do it to try to fit in (in fact most of the time it causes me to stand out) it's just something that I do. You may say that everyone does that, and I would agree, but only to a certain extent. I don't know of anyone that adapts to other people quite as completely as I do. That's it, I'm finished. Real groundbreaking huh? Now, for fun some miscellaneous wishes:
I wish I could write, really write. Meaning I wish I could put my ideas down on paper in a way that did them any justice at all. This connects to wish #2
I wish things that I do or think would come out half as well as I picture them in my mind.
I wish I could fly, and not just levitate either. I want big old angel wings with feathers and everything.
I wish I was as interesting as half the people I know.
I wish that more people read this, not as an ego trip either. I just wish that more people knew the real me.
I wish my journal was more meaningful (that one's my fault)
I wish I could remember half of the interesting things I learn.
I wish that school actually taught people things.
I wish I had the time and inclination to do and read all the things I wanted to.
I wish the term "I wish" wasn't such a goddamned cliche.
That's about it for now. So I'm hoping this will be the new format of my journal, less of the "this is how my day went" shit and more of the "this is what I'm thinking and feeling" shit. Feel free to tell me what you think, if it's interesting I might actually pay attention.
I wish I could think of a good way to end this entry.
I am less a man than I am a shattered mirror.
I reflect bits and pieces of people that catch my eye. Speech patterns, facial expressions, vocal intonations, gestures, slang, writing styles. Chances are, if there is something about me you like, it came from somebody else. Let me stress that this is not necessarily a bad thing. This is just something that I've come to realize through my years of self observation. I don't do it on purpose, I don't do it to try to fit in (in fact most of the time it causes me to stand out) it's just something that I do. You may say that everyone does that, and I would agree, but only to a certain extent. I don't know of anyone that adapts to other people quite as completely as I do. That's it, I'm finished. Real groundbreaking huh? Now, for fun some miscellaneous wishes:
I wish I could write, really write. Meaning I wish I could put my ideas down on paper in a way that did them any justice at all. This connects to wish #2
I wish things that I do or think would come out half as well as I picture them in my mind.
I wish I could fly, and not just levitate either. I want big old angel wings with feathers and everything.
I wish I was as interesting as half the people I know.
I wish that more people read this, not as an ego trip either. I just wish that more people knew the real me.
I wish my journal was more meaningful (that one's my fault)
I wish I could remember half of the interesting things I learn.
I wish that school actually taught people things.
I wish I had the time and inclination to do and read all the things I wanted to.
I wish the term "I wish" wasn't such a goddamned cliche.
That's about it for now. So I'm hoping this will be the new format of my journal, less of the "this is how my day went" shit and more of the "this is what I'm thinking and feeling" shit. Feel free to tell me what you think, if it's interesting I might actually pay attention.
I wish I could think of a good way to end this entry.