With this being said
It's been a long 2 days wayy too much sleep last night into today. passed out at 830, and for some reason i have such negativity flowing through my body right now, i dunno why, but even my fingers feel worthless, its odd. My arm is half numb too i dunno if that plays any part in it. i guess im just a ball of whatever inside, i let somethign get to me that i probably shouldn't have but it did, and now it's snowballing. i spent money tonite bad news there got a new tire AGAIN 4th fuckin tire in less then a year, this bitch best hold up. im so angry inside and it's all at myself. i hate the way i define lazy, i hate the way i can't seem to ever motivate myself. i ahte the way thigns just dont seem to go my way and most of all i ahte the way i feel about myself. any number of these sounds easy to change, i just can't do it. i need to get away i need to find something new and im not sure where it is, there's something missing and i cant' figure it out.
in this hosue of cards we're all holding hearts and spades
in this hosue of cards we're all holding hearts and spades