i smoke cigarrette and wanna be sedated.
i'm so fucking tired with everything. i love my best friends but somedays like tonight i wish i had one best friend and me and that best friend did everything or nothing together, and we'd be the coolest kids and everyone would want to be our friend but they'd only get as far as an aquentence(not how u spell i know). and we'd both go out to parties and have a blast! i think i wish i had a twin but not blood related. HAH!
lately i've become such a social smoker and i am just letting it go.
i haven't been drunk sense my sisters party way way earlier this year. tuesday i'm planning on getting drunk with people and go to the stanislaus fair and have a kick ass time.
saturday is this bomb ass party in turlock and another for a good friend. maybe i'll go party hopping. who knows, but i cant find anyone to party hop with and i bet i'll have to be home early anyway, maybe i'll just go to one party because we have to move out sunday. my family is moving across town, by beyer. so tight.
if i had one friendtwin then i could talkto them right now.
tonight i went out to the beyer park area and there were people and then other people they brought. well the people someone brougt were talking shit when i walked up. people always are hatin' on me. its a cruel world, but seriously this kid that was talkin shit is so annoying and i ignore him.
i need to hang out with people that can talk to me yet also listen to me. i love listening but some nights it feels my words dont count when i'm talking about my shit. but they listen when i give them advice. or maybe i'm over exaturating. but seriously, i made such a good friendship this summer! leslie and i became friends and i'm so happy. me and ashley are better friends. and alexia is such a sweetheart. and britney and me are still goodfriends, i just wish she were home and when she was home that i would hang out with her more.
i hate the theaters now. there a rip off. i can wait to see a movie in my comfy home rather than some icky lameass theater. i'm paciente as no other!
i'm just getting tired of no having a parter, ya know. seriuosly i fucking hate not being able to share EVERY LITTLE THING with anyone. i tell people stuff but i would tell my partner so much more, i want some to listen to me, but i dont want themto just be like "oh so i read your journal tell me whats up" i want to to feel a connection to where i can talk without someone asking.
this guy that i'm pretty sure likes me is so lame. its like a question everyminute or some dumb thng, or you have to ask him the question or he won't really get into detail about whatever it is.
thts what i want! i want to meet someone else who's like me and gets into DETAIL! i love getting into detail and listening to others get into detail.
this is just lame. and if you think its not, thats just my opinion.
my summers great! went to santa cruz! gonna go to fair! moving out of the gehtto! met/made new friends! hung out a lot! relaxed! slept in! gonna get a raise! trying to get a different job!
did you really read all that?
lately i've become such a social smoker and i am just letting it go.
i haven't been drunk sense my sisters party way way earlier this year. tuesday i'm planning on getting drunk with people and go to the stanislaus fair and have a kick ass time.
saturday is this bomb ass party in turlock and another for a good friend. maybe i'll go party hopping. who knows, but i cant find anyone to party hop with and i bet i'll have to be home early anyway, maybe i'll just go to one party because we have to move out sunday. my family is moving across town, by beyer. so tight.
if i had one friendtwin then i could talkto them right now.
tonight i went out to the beyer park area and there were people and then other people they brought. well the people someone brougt were talking shit when i walked up. people always are hatin' on me. its a cruel world, but seriously this kid that was talkin shit is so annoying and i ignore him.
i need to hang out with people that can talk to me yet also listen to me. i love listening but some nights it feels my words dont count when i'm talking about my shit. but they listen when i give them advice. or maybe i'm over exaturating. but seriously, i made such a good friendship this summer! leslie and i became friends and i'm so happy. me and ashley are better friends. and alexia is such a sweetheart. and britney and me are still goodfriends, i just wish she were home and when she was home that i would hang out with her more.
i hate the theaters now. there a rip off. i can wait to see a movie in my comfy home rather than some icky lameass theater. i'm paciente as no other!
i'm just getting tired of no having a parter, ya know. seriuosly i fucking hate not being able to share EVERY LITTLE THING with anyone. i tell people stuff but i would tell my partner so much more, i want some to listen to me, but i dont want themto just be like "oh so i read your journal tell me whats up" i want to to feel a connection to where i can talk without someone asking.
this guy that i'm pretty sure likes me is so lame. its like a question everyminute or some dumb thng, or you have to ask him the question or he won't really get into detail about whatever it is.
thts what i want! i want to meet someone else who's like me and gets into DETAIL! i love getting into detail and listening to others get into detail.
this is just lame. and if you think its not, thats just my opinion.
my summers great! went to santa cruz! gonna go to fair! moving out of the gehtto! met/made new friends! hung out a lot! relaxed! slept in! gonna get a raise! trying to get a different job!
did you really read all that?