You know...it's kind of funny....
But have you ever noticed how when people are around, you do and say things a little differently? I don't just mean some type of full out change in persona, but the little suttle things.
I was having a conversation earlier with someone, and got to talking about how I looked at things vs how I used to look at things. Then, when done talking to them, I was still a little riled up, and started the conversation anew with someone else.
And it occured to me...
I have actually been hiding my real self from people. I know, the timing may be bad, or seem ironic, but I have been noticing how I have been conducting myself. For the benifit of friends that I don't want to hurt/lose, I really toned things down. There is only one person that ever really knew how I felt about and thought about things going on in the world around me. And with this revelation, I have decided that there is no need to hide any more. I mean hell, I seldom talk to anyone anymore as it is so if I offend/upset them, oh well I guess.
But on the same note, is it more hurtful for me to offend friends or for me to hide within myself, not to show these people that are close to me what I really am?
What brought this about again, starts with the simple task of getting a better job. A job that by the way, I am over qualified for, I will not get because someone of an "ethnic" background had applied for the same job. They hired this guy over me. Now not that I am just angry about that, but the fact is, he works with a friend of mine, who has informed me of how bad this guy sucks at the job. He told me about how the guy almost killed him with an on the job accident because the guy didn't listen to anyone's instructions. Not to mention the guy lied on his application, listing job skills that he does not have. And when confronted on this, the new guy quickly turned it into a race issue. Not admitting to the fact that he can not do the job, not the fact that he almost killed people with his negligence and ignorance, but the fact that his skin is of a differant color.
So of course, fearing any type of negative backflow from said statment, the guy gets to keep the job, and just gets off with a warning. Where as irony would have it, a week previous, another guy, a white guy might I add, that had worked there in the same job for the past 4 years, was fired for a first offense. The offense being lying about being a high school grad. So for 4 years, he worked without incident or disciplinary action, and was fired for lying about being a high school grad. Whereas this new guy lied on his as well, and almost killed someone, and gets a warning.
Now why did the basically the same thing not apply to both of these men? How is it fair in the slightest that there is this "Ethnic buyout plan"? As soon as something doesn't go your way, simply yell "Racism! Racism!" and things get turned around for you.
That is, of course only if you are one of the many "daily discriminated ethnic groups". Because we all no that noone discriminates against good ole Johnny Whitebread. Whitey has every thing handed to him. All doors are open for Whitey. Whitey never gets turned down at the bank. Whitey never gets turned down at the car lot or cell phone shop. Whitey can walk into anywhere at anytime to the sound of angel trumpets heavenly light. And to keep such good status in, we have to constantly discriminate against the poor forlorn ethnic groups. Bullshit.
There are certain groups out there that actually let shit like that roll from their mouths. They print literature saying the same thing. The worst thing about it is that people buy into it. People actually believe it.
Well let me tell you what I believe.
I believe that if things don't go my way, I can never use the color of my skin to change it. No. I get discrimination against me because of the way I dress, the language I use, and the way I think. Not the color of my skin, because everyone knows, whites are not discriminated against right?
It is a CRIME to be white in America anymore. I had nothing to do with slaves, WWII Nazi party, or the horrid living conditions in Mexico, or some genocide in some far off fucking desert. But yet, I am somehow reminded of the fact that I should be paying for it. Where is the United Caucasion Collage fund? Where is the White History month? Why can my kids sing Kwanzaa and Hanuka songs in school plays, but are forbidden to sing Christmas songs? My children do not celebrate those holidays, they celebrate Christmas. But god forbid that they offend some little jewish boy, or some little black girl because they want to talk about the birth of Jesus.
Well I am offended that my kids will be forced to celebrate things that they do not believe in either. Where is my justice?
Why do they give suburban white kids failing grades in a class because they do not do a paper for black history month? Oh I know, there were great black leaders. I won't deny that. But it is still bullshit that they make our children participate in this. Kids can roam the halls of a school wearing a Malcom X tee shirt and that is acceptable, but wear a rebel flag shirt, get sent home to change or worse. The deck is stacked against our us and our children because we happen to have fair skin.
I am Irish/Scottish. My people were slaves. They were horribly mistreated for many many years. Where is my restitution? When will the schools force kids to do a paper about how the horribly the Irish were treated when they came to America? Forced to live in slums and ghettos. On that note so were the Italians. Where is there month? What happened to the native American's month? If our kids are doing papers on ethnic groups that the U.S. have fucked over, hell we almost wiped out their entire race! Took everything they own! Where is their justice huh?
White people in the U.S. are either too busy or to scared to think for themselves. If you claim that you are proud to be white, not that you are better than others just proud of your race, you are a racist.
Let the bullshit stop people. Wake up and say to the world that you are proud of what you are. Stop feeling the guilt for shit that you had nothing to do with. There are no slaves in America anymore, so tell people that you have no guilt about slaves. There is no Nazi concentration camps in the U.S., so stop kissing the ass of people who's long dead great grand parents were in them. I have yet to enslave anyone, or send anyone to a death camp. I am not guilty for it.
But I AM pissed that I am told I should be.
I was having a conversation earlier with someone, and got to talking about how I looked at things vs how I used to look at things. Then, when done talking to them, I was still a little riled up, and started the conversation anew with someone else.
And it occured to me...
I have actually been hiding my real self from people. I know, the timing may be bad, or seem ironic, but I have been noticing how I have been conducting myself. For the benifit of friends that I don't want to hurt/lose, I really toned things down. There is only one person that ever really knew how I felt about and thought about things going on in the world around me. And with this revelation, I have decided that there is no need to hide any more. I mean hell, I seldom talk to anyone anymore as it is so if I offend/upset them, oh well I guess.
But on the same note, is it more hurtful for me to offend friends or for me to hide within myself, not to show these people that are close to me what I really am?
What brought this about again, starts with the simple task of getting a better job. A job that by the way, I am over qualified for, I will not get because someone of an "ethnic" background had applied for the same job. They hired this guy over me. Now not that I am just angry about that, but the fact is, he works with a friend of mine, who has informed me of how bad this guy sucks at the job. He told me about how the guy almost killed him with an on the job accident because the guy didn't listen to anyone's instructions. Not to mention the guy lied on his application, listing job skills that he does not have. And when confronted on this, the new guy quickly turned it into a race issue. Not admitting to the fact that he can not do the job, not the fact that he almost killed people with his negligence and ignorance, but the fact that his skin is of a differant color.
So of course, fearing any type of negative backflow from said statment, the guy gets to keep the job, and just gets off with a warning. Where as irony would have it, a week previous, another guy, a white guy might I add, that had worked there in the same job for the past 4 years, was fired for a first offense. The offense being lying about being a high school grad. So for 4 years, he worked without incident or disciplinary action, and was fired for lying about being a high school grad. Whereas this new guy lied on his as well, and almost killed someone, and gets a warning.
Now why did the basically the same thing not apply to both of these men? How is it fair in the slightest that there is this "Ethnic buyout plan"? As soon as something doesn't go your way, simply yell "Racism! Racism!" and things get turned around for you.
That is, of course only if you are one of the many "daily discriminated ethnic groups". Because we all no that noone discriminates against good ole Johnny Whitebread. Whitey has every thing handed to him. All doors are open for Whitey. Whitey never gets turned down at the bank. Whitey never gets turned down at the car lot or cell phone shop. Whitey can walk into anywhere at anytime to the sound of angel trumpets heavenly light. And to keep such good status in, we have to constantly discriminate against the poor forlorn ethnic groups. Bullshit.
There are certain groups out there that actually let shit like that roll from their mouths. They print literature saying the same thing. The worst thing about it is that people buy into it. People actually believe it.
Well let me tell you what I believe.
I believe that if things don't go my way, I can never use the color of my skin to change it. No. I get discrimination against me because of the way I dress, the language I use, and the way I think. Not the color of my skin, because everyone knows, whites are not discriminated against right?
It is a CRIME to be white in America anymore. I had nothing to do with slaves, WWII Nazi party, or the horrid living conditions in Mexico, or some genocide in some far off fucking desert. But yet, I am somehow reminded of the fact that I should be paying for it. Where is the United Caucasion Collage fund? Where is the White History month? Why can my kids sing Kwanzaa and Hanuka songs in school plays, but are forbidden to sing Christmas songs? My children do not celebrate those holidays, they celebrate Christmas. But god forbid that they offend some little jewish boy, or some little black girl because they want to talk about the birth of Jesus.
Well I am offended that my kids will be forced to celebrate things that they do not believe in either. Where is my justice?
Why do they give suburban white kids failing grades in a class because they do not do a paper for black history month? Oh I know, there were great black leaders. I won't deny that. But it is still bullshit that they make our children participate in this. Kids can roam the halls of a school wearing a Malcom X tee shirt and that is acceptable, but wear a rebel flag shirt, get sent home to change or worse. The deck is stacked against our us and our children because we happen to have fair skin.
I am Irish/Scottish. My people were slaves. They were horribly mistreated for many many years. Where is my restitution? When will the schools force kids to do a paper about how the horribly the Irish were treated when they came to America? Forced to live in slums and ghettos. On that note so were the Italians. Where is there month? What happened to the native American's month? If our kids are doing papers on ethnic groups that the U.S. have fucked over, hell we almost wiped out their entire race! Took everything they own! Where is their justice huh?
White people in the U.S. are either too busy or to scared to think for themselves. If you claim that you are proud to be white, not that you are better than others just proud of your race, you are a racist.
Let the bullshit stop people. Wake up and say to the world that you are proud of what you are. Stop feeling the guilt for shit that you had nothing to do with. There are no slaves in America anymore, so tell people that you have no guilt about slaves. There is no Nazi concentration camps in the U.S., so stop kissing the ass of people who's long dead great grand parents were in them. I have yet to enslave anyone, or send anyone to a death camp. I am not guilty for it.
But I AM pissed that I am told I should be.