omg livejournal!!!
so who totally forgot that this existed!!! oh my god. reading this is such a time capsule. like, thorough documentation that i am insane and have been since high school. so i guess i'll update!
i'll stick with the boy update, because that seems to be a common vein in which we can continue. the non-relationships with both Matt and J have concluded in fiery balls of wreckage. the Ends were followed by months of drawn out drama and angst, attempts to apologize, and a consistent lack of follow through. resulting in my complete loss of faith in man kind and in my ability to have a successful relationship. during this period my one saving grace was Mark, Matt's roommate. it turns out i only met Matt in order to be united with my soul mate, Mark. (clarification: we never did and never will make out. Mark is my brother from another mother, and while we were attached at the hip, it was very much not sexy time.) Mark graduated and moved to Austin. i was traumatized and sad. and by was, i mean am.
now i've been semi-successful in sorting through my heaps of emotional baggage and feel finally ready to stop hating everyone... and possibly entertain the idea of even trusting someone again.
i've started seeing someone. very new. very slowly. though i do feel it has promise... i am determined to establish a new pattern of behavior that involves the relationship being successful rather than making me hate my life. so far including a step called "getting to know each other" has really been helping. apparently it's the part of the relationship where you learn what you have in common and whether or not you actually like each other. more research is required, but i think this new step will prove to be an invaluable addition to the dating process. so... so far so good. now if i can just hold it together...
nothing else in my life is interesting right now. except for the fact that i now have friends!!! which is very exciting and drastic improvement over not having friends. and even better, THEY ARE GIRLS! i know, who's proud of me? so while i do still live in petaluma in my rocking little house, i spend the majority of time in san raf with dre and jasmine because we are in love and joined at the hip.
this weekend i went to the Croation Extraviganza with dre and her entier extended family (plus like a billion other croatina people, who knew?). they rosted whole goats and lambs and we got free beer.
i'll stick with the boy update, because that seems to be a common vein in which we can continue. the non-relationships with both Matt and J have concluded in fiery balls of wreckage. the Ends were followed by months of drawn out drama and angst, attempts to apologize, and a consistent lack of follow through. resulting in my complete loss of faith in man kind and in my ability to have a successful relationship. during this period my one saving grace was Mark, Matt's roommate. it turns out i only met Matt in order to be united with my soul mate, Mark. (clarification: we never did and never will make out. Mark is my brother from another mother, and while we were attached at the hip, it was very much not sexy time.) Mark graduated and moved to Austin. i was traumatized and sad. and by was, i mean am.
now i've been semi-successful in sorting through my heaps of emotional baggage and feel finally ready to stop hating everyone... and possibly entertain the idea of even trusting someone again.
i've started seeing someone. very new. very slowly. though i do feel it has promise... i am determined to establish a new pattern of behavior that involves the relationship being successful rather than making me hate my life. so far including a step called "getting to know each other" has really been helping. apparently it's the part of the relationship where you learn what you have in common and whether or not you actually like each other. more research is required, but i think this new step will prove to be an invaluable addition to the dating process. so... so far so good. now if i can just hold it together...
nothing else in my life is interesting right now. except for the fact that i now have friends!!! which is very exciting and drastic improvement over not having friends. and even better, THEY ARE GIRLS! i know, who's proud of me? so while i do still live in petaluma in my rocking little house, i spend the majority of time in san raf with dre and jasmine because we are in love and joined at the hip.
this weekend i went to the Croation Extraviganza with dre and her entier extended family (plus like a billion other croatina people, who knew?). they rosted whole goats and lambs and we got free beer.