*:::::yawning:::::*
well im sitting here on a sat. night cuz nickis bf couldnt get the car. me, her, and jenn were all fucking fuming...not at him, just at the fact that we spent another day at home dealing with the shit our families give us. cleaned the fucking house all fucking day long. im sorry but you dont fucking barge into someones room at fucking 9.30am and yell at them to get up and scrub a carpet. wtf?? so i fucking cleaned shit all fucking day long...b o r i n g...
i duno what it is lately, im just not happy. i can think up a million reasons to be sad, but none to be happy. yea im alive and all, but still. i told rainna earlier how i miss how things used to be, even though things were bad at times, im just used to whats considered "normal" from the people over there, then look at the ones over here. its not as fucking easy as people fucking think. i cant just fucking walk out my house and leave, i cant just fucking call up my old friends and have them come pick me up and we go out, i cant even fucking go to my best friends house, shes like family, people think its sooooo fucking simple. you try living with my mom, you try having to wake up to her bitching, go home to her bitching, go to bed and hear her bitching. i hate how when something goes wrong in her fucking life, its suddenly my fault. fuck that.
t: dont you feel empty at the end of the night? like youre
missing something
m: nope! i mean, i still have faith in something im just not
about to label it. but as long as you have hope in
something you cant be empty.
t: i just dont get it. i cant be with someone who is
spiritually on the same level as me
((blah blah it goes on))
WHAT THE FUCK LITTLE BOY? EXCUSE ME, DONT FUCKING KNOCK ON MY FUCKING RELIGION JUST CUZ YOU DONT BELIEVE IN THE SAME SHIT. I DIDNT FUCKING DISCRIMINATE AGAINST YOURS! THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK.....FUCK!!
goodbye
i duno what it is lately, im just not happy. i can think up a million reasons to be sad, but none to be happy. yea im alive and all, but still. i told rainna earlier how i miss how things used to be, even though things were bad at times, im just used to whats considered "normal" from the people over there, then look at the ones over here. its not as fucking easy as people fucking think. i cant just fucking walk out my house and leave, i cant just fucking call up my old friends and have them come pick me up and we go out, i cant even fucking go to my best friends house, shes like family, people think its sooooo fucking simple. you try living with my mom, you try having to wake up to her bitching, go home to her bitching, go to bed and hear her bitching. i hate how when something goes wrong in her fucking life, its suddenly my fault. fuck that.
t: dont you feel empty at the end of the night? like youre
missing something
m: nope! i mean, i still have faith in something im just not
about to label it. but as long as you have hope in
something you cant be empty.
t: i just dont get it. i cant be with someone who is
spiritually on the same level as me
((blah blah it goes on))
WHAT THE FUCK LITTLE BOY? EXCUSE ME, DONT FUCKING KNOCK ON MY FUCKING RELIGION JUST CUZ YOU DONT BELIEVE IN THE SAME SHIT. I DIDNT FUCKING DISCRIMINATE AGAINST YOURS! THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK.....FUCK!!
goodbye