wish i had a clue.

[johnnygodarkly]

i'm losing control. i could blame it on everyone's minds working in the stupidest ways, but i don't need to be told that it's not okay. they're just different. only i can't comprehend why things happen and why people do the things they do and how i can go from elated to absolute shit in less than 72 hours.

I remember a birthday and the most unexpected, and I remember you.
I remember looking and feeling and wonder, and I remember you.
I remember Copper Rock and song lyrics;
I remember bridges and beautiful silence;
I remember walking and holding hands;
I remember two rings and two hearts;
I remember everything you have said,
And I remember you.

I remember sitting under a bridge, and I remember you.
I remember walking away, and I remember you.
I remember not talking, and I remember you.
I remember crying for hours;
I remember how you didn't do anything;
I remember how you don't feel anything;
I remember how you let me go
That fateful day,
And I remember you.

Now I know loss, and I think of you.
I know hate and love and I think of you.
I know fear and pain that cannot be released;
I know obsession and how it dominates;
I know heartless, loathing, yearning...
...And I know you.

fix me