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Who doesn't like to be ignored? I find it exhilarating. Really. I do. My brain switches to turbo speed and I can't keep anything straight. TRY IT.
So. This isn't going so well. Everything is absolute perfection except that one part of my life that has been seeming to bring me down more than pick me up. I'm not number one. Which, don't get me wrong, I don't expect to be, but I'm not even three. Or even four. It was supposed to be different here. But things are getting in the way .. the same things that were before. I can't stand liars. I can't stand that I'm doing this to myself.
But as always, I don't know what to do. I just don't.
So. This isn't going so well. Everything is absolute perfection except that one part of my life that has been seeming to bring me down more than pick me up. I'm not number one. Which, don't get me wrong, I don't expect to be, but I'm not even three. Or even four. It was supposed to be different here. But things are getting in the way .. the same things that were before. I can't stand liars. I can't stand that I'm doing this to myself.
But as always, I don't know what to do. I just don't.