i didnt think this would happen again, even with my best intentions
so i hate grrls. wanna know why? they rip yr heart out of yr chest and throw it on the ground and jump up and down on it smashing it to a pulp and then laugh really loud about it. HAHAHAHAHA. just like that...
so i wrote this like 5 page long song for meghan, not lyrics but like the sheet music. my plan was thus: to give it to her and for her to go home and play it on her flute and be really moved by it. sounds like an ok plan right? well it was until i went to give it to her. she was in the yearbook room and i went in. i pleasantly said hello and chit chatted for a moment. then a song came on the radio as i was going to give it to her. she started talking about how the song reminded her of josh and shit and started talking about all these other guys. i got really depressed for some reason, but tried to play it off really well. i ended up throwing the song away. i was really bummed.
i told karen about it and she seems to think that maybe meghan talks about other guys like that subconciously. like as if she did it unknowingly. maybe she does, but shit. yknow? its kinda frustrating.
i wish i could do away with these feelings i have for meghan...but it seems as if theyre here to stay. :/
im in houston today, and on the plane i wrote this song about not being given a chance to "blossom"(for lack of a better word). ask me if you wanna read it. heres an excerpt...
i am the flower you stepped on not allowing me to grow//i am the stranger on the street you dont even try to know//i am the water you dont want that you drain with a sieve//i am the baby that you aborted you never gave me the chance to live...
so karen and i hung out all valentines day since no other grrls are kool enough to let me stay their boyfriend for more than a month... we watched fight club and ate pizza. fight club was funny/weird as shit. so apparently edward norton is some schitzo...whod have thunk it? we did a bunch of other shit at the avenue and stuff...it was really fun! way to take my mind off everyone getting laid.
soon enough, i will be over you...
so i wrote this like 5 page long song for meghan, not lyrics but like the sheet music. my plan was thus: to give it to her and for her to go home and play it on her flute and be really moved by it. sounds like an ok plan right? well it was until i went to give it to her. she was in the yearbook room and i went in. i pleasantly said hello and chit chatted for a moment. then a song came on the radio as i was going to give it to her. she started talking about how the song reminded her of josh and shit and started talking about all these other guys. i got really depressed for some reason, but tried to play it off really well. i ended up throwing the song away. i was really bummed.
i told karen about it and she seems to think that maybe meghan talks about other guys like that subconciously. like as if she did it unknowingly. maybe she does, but shit. yknow? its kinda frustrating.
i wish i could do away with these feelings i have for meghan...but it seems as if theyre here to stay. :/
im in houston today, and on the plane i wrote this song about not being given a chance to "blossom"(for lack of a better word). ask me if you wanna read it. heres an excerpt...
i am the flower you stepped on not allowing me to grow//i am the stranger on the street you dont even try to know//i am the water you dont want that you drain with a sieve//i am the baby that you aborted you never gave me the chance to live...
so karen and i hung out all valentines day since no other grrls are kool enough to let me stay their boyfriend for more than a month... we watched fight club and ate pizza. fight club was funny/weird as shit. so apparently edward norton is some schitzo...whod have thunk it? we did a bunch of other shit at the avenue and stuff...it was really fun! way to take my mind off everyone getting laid.
soon enough, i will be over you...