something isn't right in this world called confusion
summer is almost over...I feel that this summer has been a giant waste. I've worked 40-50 hour weeks, took calculus 2, and now I have 3-4 weeks before I go back to school. In addition, it is becoming more and more evident who is going to stay in touch with who after college. It sucks, it is a horrible thing to think about, but it is true. I am going to lose 2 of my best friends in the next year...then I have to think about careers and what is going on with that. I know that I am not the only one who feels that way, but it seems like I am. It is so hard because I am so afraid that things arent going to pan out after college and that I am going to be stuck in this wasted city that I currently live in. I know that I have more potential than that and I refuse to let myself be held down by this place. As a result, I think that I wont be coming home for winter break. Actually, there is a 90% chance that I wont come home for break. I need to spend this year really getting myself together, landing a really sweet internship, and trying to hold on to the few friends that I still have left.
Because I've been so busy this summer I havent had time to see a lot of people that I want to spend time with. I am a horrible friend for that, and I am sorry, guys, I really am. Over the course of the next few weeks that I am home I want to see you all, so if you havent heard from me in a while and you randomly get a call, then I guess you can put together that you are one of those people who I miss hanging out with.
Because I've been so busy this summer I havent had time to see a lot of people that I want to spend time with. I am a horrible friend for that, and I am sorry, guys, I really am. Over the course of the next few weeks that I am home I want to see you all, so if you havent heard from me in a while and you randomly get a call, then I guess you can put together that you are one of those people who I miss hanging out with.