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I've given in.
well, actually, I've given up.
Thinking one can still go after what ones believes in his deepest convictions to be true while settling for something less then. Settling because the appearance might be enough to get me through. But it's killed something inside of me and i don't know how to get that back. Don't know if I want to, and that scares me more then anything else. the only hope is that some day i may once again find the courage to believe that it is worthwhile
side note: hope comes only to a man in times when he has nothing to hold on to. He has to make something up to take place of what does not exist in his life. hope shows only that a man is lost, and that he is on his knees and begging. That he is pathetic.
now the question is put forth:
must a man become pathetic to realize what he has is not enough or does him being pathetic only further strengthen his tie to his made up hope to inforce a made up reality for him to live in??
anybody...
well, actually, I've given up.
Thinking one can still go after what ones believes in his deepest convictions to be true while settling for something less then. Settling because the appearance might be enough to get me through. But it's killed something inside of me and i don't know how to get that back. Don't know if I want to, and that scares me more then anything else. the only hope is that some day i may once again find the courage to believe that it is worthwhile
side note: hope comes only to a man in times when he has nothing to hold on to. He has to make something up to take place of what does not exist in his life. hope shows only that a man is lost, and that he is on his knees and begging. That he is pathetic.
now the question is put forth:
must a man become pathetic to realize what he has is not enough or does him being pathetic only further strengthen his tie to his made up hope to inforce a made up reality for him to live in??
anybody...