long update about the new job...

[johnnya]

Well here I am sitting at work bored as usual. My life since the monday before last has been an emotional rollercoaster with a lot of highs and lows along with a severe case of the blah's. If you remember in a post earlier this year I was turned down for a job I wanted in a letter "we regret to inform you but...". I wasn't really upset about it at the time because honestly, it was a relief from the stress. Really the only issue I had with it was the resulting feelings of "i'm not good enough I guess...". I randomly checked help wanted ad's to see if there was anything in that area that I would want to do. I was really hoping to see an opening for a 911 dispatcher because I knew that would be something I would love. However I never saw anything advertised and had every intention of going to the local employment office... but we all know how quickly I get around to things. Anyway around the end of July my friend Tim e-mailed me with a newspaper clipping attatched advertising a job from the place I was turned down at. The very same job. I was pretty irked at seeing that and told myself I wouldn't accept the job even if they did offer it to me. Fast forward to the monday before last. I'm asleep in bed with Larry because we had plans to go out that day and my phone rings around 10:30 waking me up. I answered it while i'm still half asleep and it's this place asking if I'm still looking for a job. After waking up a little more I told him I would think about it and let him know by the end of the day. That was one of the longest days of my life. Naturally Larry was in a mood because I had a lot of things running through my head, or according to him I was being a jerk. We ended up argueing most of the day which REALLY helped me relax. I called mom later though and after talking with her I decided I was going to take it. So I called that dude back and told him my decision and planned out a time to be over there the next day for the final interview. After that was done they had their little conference and I was officially hired. I came back to work here on Wednesday and told my boss that I was putting in my two weeks notice. I know I'm going to miss this place but by the time I leave here of a night I'm anxious about starting out somewhere new. I've had good times here but simply put, I'm bored. Mom and I went to Kirksville tuesday and started looking for apartments. I don't know why I ever thought that was going to be an easy process. I toured a lot of really run down shitty apartments and a lot of really nice shoebox sized studio apartments they wanted ungodly amounts of money for. So right now my mission is to find a happy medium. I do have to admit that landlords are extremely helpful over there. If they didn't have what I was looking for they would give me a number for other people who own apartments that weren't advertised. We finally gave up searching for the day and returned home. I have one that I'm going to look at tomorrow morning that sounds very promising so wish me luck with that one. I'm pretty apprehensive about all of this... I don't want to move and just end up being in a worse financial situation... I think that's my biggest fear. I'm also apprehensive about starting a new job but I guess it's always a little scary starting one. Eh like I said it's an emotional rollercoaster. Once I get there and get settled in I know I'll be okay.

Final thoughts: I REALLY hope the apartment I'm looking at tomorrow is the perfect one for me.