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so today ...er yesterday was one of those days that weren't exactly puppies and flowers. i was supposed to go give honey to the river for day 3 , i got 2 more to go. well my new car decided to bust a hose an dover heat.my first reaction was to freak out and think the worst and be miserable. but i thought of what someone told me. if you can fix a problem then there is nothing to worry about, if you cant fix a problem then ther eis no need to worry about it. it hit home right then. so i drove back to th ehouse an dlet my car cool off. i filled it with water and started it up. i noticed if i didnt run the ac i could see a steady drip out of a hose. if i ran the ac, after a few minutes i saw a steady pressurized stream , spouting from a hole. so i ran it most of the day without ac and it wa sfine and then the guy i go tthe car from came up, got dirty and fixed it for me. problem solved, i know how to do it next time. no big deal.still made it to the river. gave honey had my talk with ochun and carried on all the while having a smile on my face thinking to myself to the world, "bring it on"
next went to godfathers shop for a bit everything was cool there , only happy people cam ein today wishing to maintain a steady spiritual balance so no drama there. except that books a million got robbed today and my godfatehrs wife was worried that unruelly peopl enext door were the robbers and were concerned that they would start trouble. so i went next door and sat fo ra bit and while everyone was wound up about something or othe ri sat and talked to everyone individually and everyone ended up in a content mood by the time i left and were singing skinnerd songs, arm in arm togetehr by the time i walked out the door.
i went the tattoo shop, which the energy ther eis completely screwed. tattooe dthe guy i got my car from who got dirty fixing the hos eon said car. we hung out for a bit and i went home.i got hoime let doggie out, had my nightly talk with the sky and the stars and thought for a bit abotu a certain girl whom i hold dear to my heart. and thought about what she might be doing an dwhat she might be thinking about, and hoped all the while that no matter what she may be doing i hoped she wa ssmiling. i love to see her smile. i love to make her smile. i just love being around her, good bad anything in between i just love her.then the guy that i tattooed/got car from called an dsai dhe was at the boobie bar and wanted to know if i wanted to come up.i had such a good time last time i wa sliek sure. i can either do that or sit around the house, so i opted to go have a couple beers with a couple new friends and watch half naked girls dance around to motley crew. all was good until a guy walked in that wa sone of the guys who a couple weeks ago robbed the guy that i tattooed. he and 2 otehr guys tried to pull my buddy out of his car and were beating him pretty good. they got a charm from his necklace an dhis phone. so guy i tattooed and friends were all hot and ready to throw down. me being in my new logical state of mind decided i would keep the peace an dkept everything down to a talking shit level. no one threw a punch. there were some obscenities tossed about and it almost go tthere but i stood in the middle of both groups and kept everyone at bay. it made the guy i tattooed question my loyalty but then i explained the theory of karma and everyone was liek fuck it. ironically the guy who was suppossedly the theif in question ended up getting dumped in the parking lot. i dont kno wwhether or not he stole the stuff or not, but i think he did so it seemes like poetic justice and eeryone was cool and no one fought or went to jail.
i went and ha dsome food after wards and now i have 2 poepl ewho want to open a tattoo shop for me to run. im still not sure what i want to do.i wanted to give up tattooing and my band partly to show a certain girl that i would give it all up for her if it made her more comfortable and partly because im a new me and im not sure what i want to do career wise. i go through this about once a year. re-defining myself and what not. but who knows. its really the only marketable skill i have and im talente denough that i should be much better off than i am.but i meet people i liek and want to do tattoos on them and i dont charge them and stuff even if i am starving or cant pay rent because i like them an di like having my artwork on people.
the moral of this story was that today i feel was a test. to test my ability to deal with conflict and i feel that i ace dthat test with flying colors.even when frustrated i remmebered what wa simportant. that i was awesome. i loved myself, my son, my friends and my life. i loed that i was in love with a girl that i feel deserves for me to be inlove with her. i loved that i got to help people today even if it wa sjuvenile stuff about keeping people out of fighting and i didnt have to throw a single punch an di smiled all day.
so to the worl di say this, "is that all you got"...bring it on. i know that is quite a dare, but i dont mind im an over achiever and i say bring it on.so ends today. im drunk and tired.im gonna go play my guitar and sing a few songs sicne i didnt get to hae band practice tonight and then im going to sit and think about a certain girl for a while while i drift off to sleep. i wonder if she thinks about me, late at night when her head hits the pillow. i wonderi fshe knows i think about her 45 secinds of e every minute of every hour of every day since i have met her.i wonder if i matter at all to her.at the sam etime it makes no difference becaue i love the fact that i am completely in love with her an di love that i treat her so well even if she does get oppositional at times. i just love her. and nothing can stop that or me or my convictions. nothing can stop me at all. confidence is a great thing. so is love. maybe i sound like a tree hugge rbut i really dont care. i love who i am and this life i have and i love that i have so much to offe rthe world.on that note goo dnight world. go ahead try to fuck me up tomorrow cuz im bigger than you. you want a little? come get some. i have plenty of fight left in these bones to give you a good 12 rounds if not more.peace
next went to godfathers shop for a bit everything was cool there , only happy people cam ein today wishing to maintain a steady spiritual balance so no drama there. except that books a million got robbed today and my godfatehrs wife was worried that unruelly peopl enext door were the robbers and were concerned that they would start trouble. so i went next door and sat fo ra bit and while everyone was wound up about something or othe ri sat and talked to everyone individually and everyone ended up in a content mood by the time i left and were singing skinnerd songs, arm in arm togetehr by the time i walked out the door.
i went the tattoo shop, which the energy ther eis completely screwed. tattooe dthe guy i got my car from who got dirty fixing the hos eon said car. we hung out for a bit and i went home.i got hoime let doggie out, had my nightly talk with the sky and the stars and thought for a bit abotu a certain girl whom i hold dear to my heart. and thought about what she might be doing an dwhat she might be thinking about, and hoped all the while that no matter what she may be doing i hoped she wa ssmiling. i love to see her smile. i love to make her smile. i just love being around her, good bad anything in between i just love her.then the guy that i tattooed/got car from called an dsai dhe was at the boobie bar and wanted to know if i wanted to come up.i had such a good time last time i wa sliek sure. i can either do that or sit around the house, so i opted to go have a couple beers with a couple new friends and watch half naked girls dance around to motley crew. all was good until a guy walked in that wa sone of the guys who a couple weeks ago robbed the guy that i tattooed. he and 2 otehr guys tried to pull my buddy out of his car and were beating him pretty good. they got a charm from his necklace an dhis phone. so guy i tattooed and friends were all hot and ready to throw down. me being in my new logical state of mind decided i would keep the peace an dkept everything down to a talking shit level. no one threw a punch. there were some obscenities tossed about and it almost go tthere but i stood in the middle of both groups and kept everyone at bay. it made the guy i tattooed question my loyalty but then i explained the theory of karma and everyone was liek fuck it. ironically the guy who was suppossedly the theif in question ended up getting dumped in the parking lot. i dont kno wwhether or not he stole the stuff or not, but i think he did so it seemes like poetic justice and eeryone was cool and no one fought or went to jail.
i went and ha dsome food after wards and now i have 2 poepl ewho want to open a tattoo shop for me to run. im still not sure what i want to do.i wanted to give up tattooing and my band partly to show a certain girl that i would give it all up for her if it made her more comfortable and partly because im a new me and im not sure what i want to do career wise. i go through this about once a year. re-defining myself and what not. but who knows. its really the only marketable skill i have and im talente denough that i should be much better off than i am.but i meet people i liek and want to do tattoos on them and i dont charge them and stuff even if i am starving or cant pay rent because i like them an di like having my artwork on people.
the moral of this story was that today i feel was a test. to test my ability to deal with conflict and i feel that i ace dthat test with flying colors.even when frustrated i remmebered what wa simportant. that i was awesome. i loved myself, my son, my friends and my life. i loed that i was in love with a girl that i feel deserves for me to be inlove with her. i loved that i got to help people today even if it wa sjuvenile stuff about keeping people out of fighting and i didnt have to throw a single punch an di smiled all day.
so to the worl di say this, "is that all you got"...bring it on. i know that is quite a dare, but i dont mind im an over achiever and i say bring it on.so ends today. im drunk and tired.im gonna go play my guitar and sing a few songs sicne i didnt get to hae band practice tonight and then im going to sit and think about a certain girl for a while while i drift off to sleep. i wonder if she thinks about me, late at night when her head hits the pillow. i wonderi fshe knows i think about her 45 secinds of e every minute of every hour of every day since i have met her.i wonder if i matter at all to her.at the sam etime it makes no difference becaue i love the fact that i am completely in love with her an di love that i treat her so well even if she does get oppositional at times. i just love her. and nothing can stop that or me or my convictions. nothing can stop me at all. confidence is a great thing. so is love. maybe i sound like a tree hugge rbut i really dont care. i love who i am and this life i have and i love that i have so much to offe rthe world.on that note goo dnight world. go ahead try to fuck me up tomorrow cuz im bigger than you. you want a little? come get some. i have plenty of fight left in these bones to give you a good 12 rounds if not more.peace