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I've come to grasp a hold of my reality. I've been fooling myself. How can I put this out there without being slightly vague.
No more obsessive behavior.
and I can't let myself slip away anymore than i already have.
I've got to find some bit of sanity within myself and take control.
one thing that has been bothering me is that I cannot put into words how I feel. This is why I find it hard to type right now. I've recently had to undergo a certain annoying aspect of life that eventually comes into the path of any alchoholic, A BRICK WALL. You know, a point where you realize that the train stops here, or this is my sotp, or where I get off. I hate the fact that all of my thoughts and process of being has been so disillusioned. I feel like my brain is too clouded to think properly and so I've made in my own head a false sense of reality, or a distorted view on life...convincing myself that it is actually just living "Alternatively"
An interesting view on things although not completely real and definately not solid enough to grasp.
life is not something to waste.
No more obsessive behavior.
and I can't let myself slip away anymore than i already have.
I've got to find some bit of sanity within myself and take control.
one thing that has been bothering me is that I cannot put into words how I feel. This is why I find it hard to type right now. I've recently had to undergo a certain annoying aspect of life that eventually comes into the path of any alchoholic, A BRICK WALL. You know, a point where you realize that the train stops here, or this is my sotp, or where I get off. I hate the fact that all of my thoughts and process of being has been so disillusioned. I feel like my brain is too clouded to think properly and so I've made in my own head a false sense of reality, or a distorted view on life...convincing myself that it is actually just living "Alternatively"
An interesting view on things although not completely real and definately not solid enough to grasp.
life is not something to waste.