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I'm sitting in my bed..back against the wall with my laptop resting on my knees..I've found that this is the only way I have really been able to steal the internet from my bedroom...It's completely ridiculous...but it works.
The windows next to me are open and exposed..A cold fresh breeze occasionally brushes over my left arm and I feel like crying.. I just sit here and stare out the window with my head leaned against the mirror.
Tonight I left work because I felt like I was going to pass out when I initially arrived..I've been working there for a year and I've never taken a sick day. I figured I owed it to myself and completely took advantage of it. I walked through a very windy Union Square and into a Virgin Megastore where I bought a couple movies I had never seen before..
Both movies were incredibly inspirational and I just feel so empowered right now....and so sad..
I'm completely overwhelmed...to the point that I feel numb..
Whenever I truly experience movies like the two that I watched tonight I really start questioning everything about myself..my life...
Even the simple stupid things like looking at my buddy list..overchecking livejournal and myspace..
To be completely honest..
I've never been so unaware of who I am in my entire life.
I know my father better than I know me..
and that's really saying something..and that in itself is really upsetting.
The windows next to me are open and exposed..A cold fresh breeze occasionally brushes over my left arm and I feel like crying.. I just sit here and stare out the window with my head leaned against the mirror.
Tonight I left work because I felt like I was going to pass out when I initially arrived..I've been working there for a year and I've never taken a sick day. I figured I owed it to myself and completely took advantage of it. I walked through a very windy Union Square and into a Virgin Megastore where I bought a couple movies I had never seen before..
Both movies were incredibly inspirational and I just feel so empowered right now....and so sad..
I'm completely overwhelmed...to the point that I feel numb..
Whenever I truly experience movies like the two that I watched tonight I really start questioning everything about myself..my life...
Even the simple stupid things like looking at my buddy list..overchecking livejournal and myspace..
To be completely honest..
I've never been so unaware of who I am in my entire life.
I know my father better than I know me..
and that's really saying something..and that in itself is really upsetting.