OMG
Funniest shit ever. I actually guessed my password today and logged into my account. So im like shit lets read some of my posts and then write another post. It's actually weird being on live journal right now, ohh or wait, I mean LJ ... lmao
So Life lately has been so difficult My schedule is Sunday- Friday. Saturday is the only day I HAVE NOTHING planned and of course I use it for studying or cleaning my room, or making fun of people :p. I have been in this weird mood where I DONT want to do anything, and im not giving my best like I used to and Im wondering where its coming from. I feel depressed, and I feel like a lot of it had to do with the weather, because today I feel different and I ve been a lot more productive these past couple days. Mondays Im busy from 11am-11pm. Tuesdays 9:30-5 & 8-12. Wednesdays I only have one class, but I have been volunteering for RA interviews and also going to dentist appointments. 13 cavities, enough to buy a big screen TV , my insurance wont even cover all of it. How Lame. Thursdays are just the same as tuesdays, and Fridays I have RAC meeting or BRAVO depending on the friday. Sunday is NRHH, which im really honored to be in, and Soccer. Any free time im usually working out, tanning, studying (yea it comes 3rd), working on loans, my resume, thinking about programs, DJing for dances, starting to read, and trying to keep positive( I think posting in here is actually helping me get my feelings out).
I dont know what it is, but the people around here are very negative lately, I honestly think its the weather but its really getting to me. I understand im an RA and I understand that Im a great listener but honestly. Im over people bringing me their problems. I have enough of my own! I am appreciative of people coming to me because I know Im mature and honest but I cant deal with it (ITS KEEPING ME OFF FOCUS!!!!) Right now the only thing I neede to do in school is focus. Im working on a stronger image, and trying to keep excited on the subjects that Im studying. Not worrying, staying happy. Being more myself. I cant tell you how many people change for certain people, thats not the way it should be and I feel like I've found who im most comfortable with. I am honored to say I can be myself around my original friends from back home still and everything is still cool, obviously I havent changed that much and if I have then they have too. Change is good. I love change and I love new beginnings. Im trying to graduate WMU (WOW GRADUATE WMU, my last posts were about coming to school at WMU) by december and move down to the southwest states of the United States. I really enjoy my job as an RA, designing programs, advertisements, conversing with too many people, laughing about how people act its hilarious. Sometimes I feel like I should be in sociology or something. Although I really still want to do something with Public Relations. I have a lot ahead of me and wow I have come a long way now that I look back on life.
Well heres something for the live journal.... IM GAY! And im fucking happy being gay
And everyone that I care about, knows Im gay, and they are cool with me being gay too
Im wondering when gay wont even phase people. Love is Love and people are people
We are all the same in that sense, but all have our unique personality and life that goes with it....
Well I love that im actually posting this. Im so cool
Walter John Rutka IV
Western Michigan University
Resident Assistant
National Residence Hall Honorary
Student of Marketing
So facebook is the new thing now, Livejournal has been dead for the longest time and I really dont even know who uses it anymore but my friends still have their account and its hilarious.