What to Say?
John and I had to cancel our health insurance a few days ago, because it was ridiculously expensive for what we were getting. The deductible was the highest that the state allows by law. That's terrible. We may not even be covered next January, because the law might change so that the highest deductible allowed by law is 5,000 not 10,000, which is the plan that we had. We doctor's visits and prescriptions were not covered under the plan. We sent out our application for MassHealth today. It might take anywhere between ten and 45 days before we hear from them. My grandmother says that she will help pay for the health insurance. At least, that's what I think she said. We can always reapply next year, because our income will have changed by then. I will say nothing more on the subject. Last night was great!
My spiritual growth has been suffering over the last couple of weeks. I haven't wanted to meditate, because all I wanted to do was relax, but I couldn' t. I'm sure this is the reason that I can't relax. Prayer has been on my mind more often recently. Definitely a good thing. I have been praying for two things. The one that I choose to share is: "Aham Prema". It means, "I am Divine Love". I have been more aware of doing things to help out others, and the words of Neem Karoli Baba to Krishna Das run through my head constantly. When Maharaj-Ji was asked how to serve God, he replied, "Serve people". Krishna Das was thought that Maharaj-Ji was mistaken, so he asked him, in a different way, how to serve God. The reply was "feed people". When Krishna Das asked how to meditate, the answer was meditate as Christ meditated. The description of this was to "lose yourself in love". These responses, from a man who had nothing and yet found a way to feed, clothe, and comfort hundreds of thousands of people, are what I realized I am praying for. By helping others, I help both myself and the God and Goddess in all beings. This is how to love all. Love for everyone must be cultivated within oneself before you can spread it or truly receive love from another creature. By looking at the life of Maharaj-Ji, I find great comfort, because he was able to do everything and maybe even more than a wealthy can do. He was given everything he needed. When he gave that away, more came to him. He worked hard to give himself to all. He is remembered by many for the person whose Divine Light and Love showed through to so many people. May we all one day experience this peace.
Aham Prema.
My spiritual growth has been suffering over the last couple of weeks. I haven't wanted to meditate, because all I wanted to do was relax, but I couldn' t. I'm sure this is the reason that I can't relax. Prayer has been on my mind more often recently. Definitely a good thing. I have been praying for two things. The one that I choose to share is: "Aham Prema". It means, "I am Divine Love". I have been more aware of doing things to help out others, and the words of Neem Karoli Baba to Krishna Das run through my head constantly. When Maharaj-Ji was asked how to serve God, he replied, "Serve people". Krishna Das was thought that Maharaj-Ji was mistaken, so he asked him, in a different way, how to serve God. The reply was "feed people". When Krishna Das asked how to meditate, the answer was meditate as Christ meditated. The description of this was to "lose yourself in love". These responses, from a man who had nothing and yet found a way to feed, clothe, and comfort hundreds of thousands of people, are what I realized I am praying for. By helping others, I help both myself and the God and Goddess in all beings. This is how to love all. Love for everyone must be cultivated within oneself before you can spread it or truly receive love from another creature. By looking at the life of Maharaj-Ji, I find great comfort, because he was able to do everything and maybe even more than a wealthy can do. He was given everything he needed. When he gave that away, more came to him. He worked hard to give himself to all. He is remembered by many for the person whose Divine Light and Love showed through to so many people. May we all one day experience this peace.
Aham Prema.