The Holiday
"I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms."
-Iris, The Holiday
This was actually Tasha's monologue for the Acting 2 midterms and I really liked the piece. I can relate, really really relate. HAHA =))
Anyway, I'm sure there are a lot of things that has changed... but of course, there are also those which still remained...
One of the major differences between Christmas last year and this year is... well, my happiness. HAHA
I have to admit, last year was a sad Christmas for me, I was crying in my bed nights before Christmas. I'm proud to say it, I fell in love with someone who didn't love me back. I was really depressed because I really wanted to have someone who will love me and make me feel special everyday but I had no choice, we were and can only be friends. I should have been happy with that, and I regret that I didn't .
This year, I felt the same thing. I fell and is still in love with someone who also didn't and will never love me back, or shall I say, loves me but not in the way that I want. According to the movie "The Holiday", it's called unrequited love. HAHA But instead of crying in my bed and feeling depressed, I focused more on the happy things. I realized that I have millions of reasons to celebrate and enjoy Christmas. I mean, why should I ruin my holiday for someone? I deserve to be happy. We all do. Right?
And that's the big difference. Like what I've said before in my blogs (in Multiply) Happiness is a choice.
This year, I chose to be happy... and I became happy.
So I hope you will also enjoy this holiday season! May we all have a brighter, a better and a happier 2010!
But I have to admit, I still want a special someone. HAHA Hope that gift will arrive soon... PLEASE! HAHA :D
That's all for now! I love you everyone! :D