so yeah...
broke it off with logan. maybe ill call in a few days and see if anything has changed, maybe not, for some reason I dont care right now, just kind of numb. talked to randy for quite a while, like I really want to b with him, I love him, but I dont know, I mean, its just so unlikely that anything will happen. he asked what I wanted, and I told him. but i dont know. and i told him other stuff, stuff no one knows but a few people,and Im glad i did, had to get it out there. I wouldnt have left for him a few weeks ago, but now I would. school sucks, I dont do a damn thing ever and it drives me crazy. whats the point? ready to move on with life and get the fuck out of here. i dont know what im going to do or any of that, but i cant get much more unhappy than i have been lately I dont think, so I dont think it'll hurt any to move on. gerald, i needed that boy tonight, and he was at his brother's, unavailable, it sucks, he harrasses me all the time then when I really need him he isnt there. i just need a new life, this one bores me. I never get my way.