Ugh, Fuck my life and everything i left behind(AKA= Venting)
God, I am soooo not wanting to come home right, now. Almost everytime i call home and talk about me coming home, i feel miserable. I Dont know why, but it was hard to even say "I love you" to my family over the phone tonight, like i was saying it to some ex-girlfriend i didnt wanna see anymore. Im so tired of having smoke blown up my ass, and being told how proud of me everyone is. Fuck that. I dont care. Its a fucking job, no more important than a damned door greeter at walmart, and i dont even get paid as much. I swear to God, if someone starts blowing smoke up my ass about how proud they are of me when i come home, im buying a plane ticket and leaviong the next fuckin day.
Another thing, I fucking hate family members who expect me to help shoulder some of their troubles and difficulties when i do come home. For one, its your situation, not mine. Deal with it your damned self. I dont give a shit if you are family, if your too damned worthless, you cant even take care of a problem you brought on yourself, that you gotta ask me while im on vacation from my "Oh-so-important" job, dont fuckin approach me.
The only thing im looking forward to right now is time spent with friends and family, but all that can be compressed into 2 or 3 days, so me spending 2 fucking weeks in oregon is going to be wrought with boredom. And with me being bored with nothing to do, im sure i can expect some enterprising family member to ask me to "watch the kids" or some other fucking errand they normally can do without me there but wanna use me as an excuse to be lazy. FUCK YOU! I swear to God im gonna fucking go ape shit when i come home and somethings gonna get broken. They wanna see anger issues, well they will the second they fucking bug me.
(Disclaimer- Im super pissed right now, and chances are once i sleep it off ill be fine. As for now, deal with it.)
Another thing, I fucking hate family members who expect me to help shoulder some of their troubles and difficulties when i do come home. For one, its your situation, not mine. Deal with it your damned self. I dont give a shit if you are family, if your too damned worthless, you cant even take care of a problem you brought on yourself, that you gotta ask me while im on vacation from my "Oh-so-important" job, dont fuckin approach me.
The only thing im looking forward to right now is time spent with friends and family, but all that can be compressed into 2 or 3 days, so me spending 2 fucking weeks in oregon is going to be wrought with boredom. And with me being bored with nothing to do, im sure i can expect some enterprising family member to ask me to "watch the kids" or some other fucking errand they normally can do without me there but wanna use me as an excuse to be lazy. FUCK YOU! I swear to God im gonna fucking go ape shit when i come home and somethings gonna get broken. They wanna see anger issues, well they will the second they fucking bug me.
(Disclaimer- Im super pissed right now, and chances are once i sleep it off ill be fine. As for now, deal with it.)