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I thought being on campus would make it easier. But in fact it makes it worse. Why? Because now we have what we've wanted, which is the ability to see each other anytime we want. The problem is, we have utilized this to our own destruction. Maybe I shouldn't say destruction...yet...we're only a week in to classes. But it's so hard. I mean school, school is hard. Well, heck, our realtionship isn't easy either. Not that we have problems. Well, just one, which is that we have to stay away from each other or else the whole day is lost to conversation. What makes it hard is that I hear other guys in my classes talk to each other and I hear girls talk about other guys and all these terrible things guys do, and I realize how lucky I am to have someone that is.....perfect?? It almost seems like a bad thing to say we are pretty darn close to being perfect for each other, but neither one of us will admit it. It's probably the only thing we haven't told each other. And I wonder how this all happened, and why it happened now. Well, I'll say one thing- I've already (somewhat) reluctantly picked out my maid of honor. I think you know who you are, and why. Now to study. and study more. and after that, I suppose I will eat something...and then study.