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ehh this might just be because of the modest mouse but im kinda depressed. i dont miss my mom and that depresses me. i got a haircut and that does too. im in serious like with this really cool girl and im a little scared shes going to realize what a loser i really am. im afraid of not being able to bramble. im depressed because i dont have any brambles. or alcohol. pretty trivial to allow a substance to promote my happiness.. ive been trying to cut down on butts lately but it seems hopeless. i just get mad or sad and use my crutch. i need to learn to walk on the broken leg i guess. school is hott. thats pretty much a cool thing. i wanna get out of my mind. i dont know what that means but it seems to fit my feelings. i just want to be happy and not be happy at the same time.. because how can you have one without the other? imagine if there were no extremes like love hate joy sadness sanity insanity..... everything would be so mundane and pointless. there would be no color because we wouldnt know what the absense of color looks like... there would be no silence because we wouldnt know what noise is.... the list could get it on forever.... a guy comes up lookin pretty eightball snaggle tooth smile sits down at my table puts his arm around me starts to share his information.... he said he said he said.....