(no subject)
none of you care anymore i wish you whould
last night
i relized who really does care
so last night i was trying to work out in my head this thign with andy the whole not talking the whole nto showing you care thing the whol he hever even caleld to say yes or no thing and then taylor and i went to the mall and at the mall i had one of my best friends ask me out and it was jsut really hard to deal with because i dont want to ever see him hurt and he treats me so unbelievable and then im sitting there being hit on by sleeze balls for hourse like this kid justin and wes and soem other boy who were jsut peices of shit and it jsut got to my head with strange thoughts and then this kid ian shows up who i hate and he starts sayign all this shti to me so i punch him in the nuts and i should have kicked him in the face when he was lying ont he groundand jsut when things are getting really shitty these cowboys that ahrrassed me one night walk by and start talking shit so i got really angry and pushed one and started screaming at him when the same kid that asks me out comes out in my defence and literally i swear whould i have kileld them both it was jsut really scarry and im like fuckkkk and then things finally start to calm down when this mexican kid that stalked taylor and i the night before showes up and i was like hey do you have a lighter and he sliek yeah but what are you going to give me in return for using it and i was liek whatever and then my friend reason gave me his and the mexican comes up behind me strangles me puts the fire from his lighter in my face and goes what my lighter to good for you so i punched him in the stomach and he starts calling em a bitch so i slapped him across the face and then i left and then andy calls and was being all negitive abotu his life but i understand
and then.. he said this today
"and i miss you really i do,
i want to be with you when im not,
but when i am i feel weak,sick if you will,
like i cant controll my body like its something i have never felt b4,
nothing has ever made me feel this way no one has,
im not afraid of you but i am afraid of this feeling,
dont take it the wrong way,
please dont, "
i thought i was the only one who hated feeling this way...
dont call me a drug addict
they make you differnt they make me normal